whee~

2008-03-23T23:18:00.006+08:00

Hey guys!

i've upgraded.
im off to Lj now.
so see you guys @ my Lj!
i'll be back occasionally to blog though.

p.s. some post would be locked.
so asked to be add.
but no guarantees
:)

2008-03-22T02:14:00.003+08:00

solo
im on my own.

although how i wished
you could be right here by side.

a day out
with my girlfriends ytd.
:)
supp to support the softballers.
but as usual.
me & mel were the late queens.
sorry guys.
anw
i guess i feel much better now.
thank you my dear(s).
hope you all had enjoyed yourself too!
it had been a wonderful day.
although we got our pockets burnt.
hahas.
save hard for the next outing girlfriends!
:)

Pictures to share with you guys!

hahas.
caught mel's unglam face!

pretty lidia!

babes!

journey to Haji lane.

woah.
thats really vulgar xp!
hahas.

what a sweet couple.
:)

xp saw a hot ang-moh.
she was distracted!

rings a bell.
(right ning.)

end of journey.

Tag Replies!
hello everyone.
sorry for the late reply.

Lihui-
thank you!
its really nice to hear
that someone still cares for me.
:)
hahas.
dont worry.
i rmb la!

SUGARgirl-
where was your cushion?
i had a big howl ytd.
:(

EECHING-
its coming up my baby.
too many to load.
so be patient.
:)

Hiro-
hahas.
thanks.
:)

mel-
awwww...

2008-03-21T04:30:00.002+08:00

all hopes
dashed.

held my cellphone
in my hand.
wondering whose number i could dial.
hesitated.
who will be up at and such a early hour.
even
those who're just a phone call away.
are probably in deep slp now.
and there's church to attend.
in less than a few hours.
cause its
Good Friday.

you never did like me
from the very start.

2008-03-20T18:48:00.004+08:00

Wooh.

What an A-hole.

when two of your friends says a diff story.
who would you believe?
needless to say.
the one closer to you.
right?

i was damn freaking pissed ytd.
and.
guess i was never so pissed before.
you wanna know why?
thanks to someone.
you know gal.
some things are just meant to be kept.
you dont needa go around
like a loudhailer.
opps.
i totally forget.
you dont like me eh.
so your definitely out to get me.
alright then.
these is how things is gonna get between us
from now.
pretending more likely.
im sorry.
once again, tags will be replied in the next post.

edited at 7:52pm.
OHMYGOD!
mel we're seriously damn lucky man.
we got it!!
finally
there's smth to be happy abt now.
:)))!

2008-03-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

love.
makes someone silly.

right mel?
:D
hahas.

you hear my laughter.
but you wouldnt know if they're for real.
would you?
you shld know if its you.
those who i expect will, wont.
and that just disappoints me.

here's a liiiittle bit on beijing's trip!

i miss we 4!
tau pok!~

tag replies!
sorry all for the late replies.
:(

JESLYN-
hey.
thanks.
:)
hope you all had fun in dance w/o us lately.
no one to nag on your.
must be good eh.

Jiemin-
hello to you too.
:)
thanks for dropping by
my blog.

mel-
hahas.
yummy right.
:)

quel-
hahas.
we're back.
and
im back too early.
the Olympics has yet to start.
hahas.

tangxp-
hahas.
dont be silly.
of cause im happy to see you again.
its not you i dont want to see.
so
fret not.
:)

Lihui-
:)
thank you.
im glad there's still ppl.
like you
who cares for me.
but dont worry.
im okay.
its just all part of life.
and
im growing strong.
hahas.

SUGARgirl-
hey.
thats right.
Im back!
i know i've been missed.
:D
hahas.
anw.
i've yet to thank you for your wishing.
thank you!
:)
and im glad to have
you all flavours gals by my side.
although i dont know your real names.
i hope you guys will tell me someday.
:)

BITTERgirl-
:)
thank you.
its nice to hear that.

2008-03-16T23:16:00.002+08:00

i wished.
i dint had to come back.

many are happy cause they're finally back.
whereas.
i wished i dint had to come back.
the moment im back.
problems and all just starts to occur.
never ending.
i wouldnt trust you like how i used to, anymore.

im sorry.
tags will be replied in the next upcoming post on Beijing trip.

2008-03-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

out
of control.

who do i turn to?

Attention!
who's coming to see us and me off this sunday?
:)
uh-huh.
its this sunday.
fast ah.
and
we'll be leaving Singapore for Beijing alrd!
cause i'll be taking part in the Olympic!
hahas.
(like real.)
kinda have a bad feeling about this trip though.
*touch wood.
maybe our plane will be hijack by the JI.
Gods knows.
anw.
do grant us safety journey to and fro.
it'll be appreciated.
:)
thank you.
and
i guess my blog will be left dead
for the next few days.
enjoy your one week holiday ppl!
i know,
i'll be missed.
:)
Beijing kao ya here i come!
*drooling.

love makes one stupid.
knowing its smth stupid.
yet you still go for it.
it cant be helped.
its just love alright.
tag replies!
JESLYN-
hahas.
you got all your peeps still.
anw
take care while we seniors are gone.
:)
dont slack in dance ah.
hahas.

SUGARgirl-
hahas.
thank you.
those words
did gave me a lil encouragement.
:)

BITTER & SUGAR girls-
do your actually know each other?

lihui-
hahas.
i will.
dont worry.
i'll take lots and lots
for you to see!
like im there for a model's photo shoot.
hahas.

2008-02-29T22:57:00.001+08:00

being
desperate or devoted?

Happy Leap year!

alright.
this week passes really fast.
its saturday tml.
and its our last weekends in Singapore!
can you believe it.
we'll will be flying off next coming weekend.
dont know if i shld be happy.
kinda lost the excitement though.
and
i've a bad feeling abt it.
smth bad is bound to happen.
:/
hope im wrong.
*cross fingers.

whats installed for this weekends?
homework.
homework.
:
thats all i can said.
the teachs are like pushing us now.
really pushing us hard.
the amt of hmwrk they give.
its like.
WOAH.

and i get tired easily lately.
speaking of it.
im startng to feel really tired now.
Goodnight ppl!

i cant explain this feeling.
but i just keep thinking abt it everyday.

tag replies!
:)

jesLYN-
hahas.
alright.
i'll drop by your blog.
anw,
you take care yars.
get well soon.
:)

Hiro-
hahas.
stupid.
im not going to scold that.
cause
totally not worth it.
to get my mouth all shitty.
:)

BITTERgirl-
hahas.
yeah.
maybe i shld set up a anti club.
:)

2008-02-28T22:57:00.001+08:00

Bitches.
just wouldnt stop bitching would they.

man.
dont you have a life?
or your life is just simply so pathetic.
that all your life
you just go around bitching about others
for who they are?
that i must say,
im really sorry for you.
and
you think your that great huh.
so what if you got all the money.

and so what if
money may make the world go round somehow.
still
this doesnt make you big im telling you.
money wont last you for eternity.
someday you'll need to depend on your own ass.
and work your own damn money.
and you know.
your shitty mouth wont bring you far.
thats for sure!
and
money wont buy you true friends okay.
so if you think having money
its alrd such a great deal.
and you have no intentions
of washing your shitty mouth with Listerine.
suit you!
i've forgiven you once.
and you simply took it for granted.
cause you think your that great now huh.
to me.
your just like a thorn in my flesh.
shit in my face!
i jolly well had enough of your freaking nonsenses.
that i never felt so piss before.
i've totally run out of patience with you.
that i might even scold you the F word
if you appear right before me now.
but.
i will not!
your aint worth dirtying my mouth.
cause i dont want my mouth
to end up as shitty as yours.
:)
and
i totally feel so sorry for you
that you have got such a pathetic life to live.
poor girl.
and
i may be a bitch
for who i am.
but you know, at least
im being myself.
then faking.
its so disgusting.
dont you feel plastic?

alright,
i seriously need to chill.
off for cold water.
with multiples of ice(s)!
and
im sorry guys.
if this post is kinda vulgar.
but im seriously too piss off.
that i need to vent it all out!!!
i had enough.
>:(

p.s. im sorry.
im not in the mood to reply tags today.
i'll reply anth day.

2008-02-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

aint worthy.
for one's pain to be lessen by another's anguish.

its just my personality alright.

tuition tuition.
thats all the excitement i have now.
honestly.
who can live w/o a phone?
i doubt many can.
and i used to be one of those who cant.
but.
im use to living w/o a phone now.
and thats when.
the old stinky sticky public phone comes in handy.
just in case you ppl think
there's no longer anybody using the pay phone.
just think of ME.
:)
and if you ever
see someone in orchard road actually using a pay-phone.
im warning you!
dont you ever dare to laugh okay.
cause,
*whispers.
the person might be me.
hahas.

but actually
w/o my phone could actually do me good too.
like,
i got praised by my tutor today.
:D
teach: eh, stop sms-ing la.
(telling the boy sitting next to me.)
boy: cannot. my gf waiting.
wait la.
*the class was laughing.
teach: oi, you also.
how come your all like so busy ah.
(telling the gal opp me.)
see huien is the best.
she doesnt even take out her phone.
all shld learn from her ah.
(edited version.)

hahas.
and of cause i reacted a reaction
most wld react.
um-choy!
hahas.
dont find me sick alright.
cause im sure.
you guys will also react this way too.
dont you dare say no!
but frankly speaking.
its i dont have my phone with me.
otherwise, i wld have alrd taken it out
like the rest.
im aint that good gal after all.
:)

but
dont forget there's still the bad(s).
w/o a phone cld be really troublesome.
and.
whenever im alone.
i'll always wonder.
1) what if
i see someone dying on the street.
and i dont have a phone to call for the ambulance.
using a pay-phone
that means
i'll still need time to look for one.
by the time.
the person wld be dead.
hahas.
2) what if
i was gonna faint again like the other time.
i wont be able to call for help.
i'll probably just rot to death.
alright
there's still more of my wonders.
but i doubt you guys wld want to continue reading then.
hahas.

they never meant it.
when they say your always the one.

tag replies!
thanks for your tags.
it sure did cheer-ed me uppp!
:)

jesLYN-
its not that we want to be bossy la.
you'll understand
when your in our shoes in the years to come.
:)

BITTERgirl-
hahas.
you knew abt it too?!
anw
thanks alot.
:)
i feel better now.

SUGARgirl-
hahas.
and you knew abt it too?!
thanks for your tag.
i feel much better now.
:)
knowing not all sees me as a attention seeker.
*phew.

SPICYgirl-
and and you knew abt it too?!
hahas.
thank you.
:DD
anw
your words were really comforting to me.

s-
hey!
how're you?
er, your new no?
i dont have it.

2008-02-21T23:40:00.003+08:00

your dumb.
if you believe her words.

sch was as usual.
nth special.
chem remedial was used for test instead.
sec4s were allowed to miss dance today!
due to the beijing briefing.
:)
the briefing sounds fun though.
the hotel looks good too.
cant wait to go!
i know you guys will miss me.
:D

time will heal.
that how i wish time wld pass faster.

tag replies.

jesLYN-
hahas.
yeah.
sure.
see you in dance gal.
:)

2008-02-14T23:36:00.001+08:00

its valentine's day!
share your love.

Happy Valentine's Day peeps!

its valentine's day today.
our sch celebrated total defence day instead.
so its
strong total defence day!
since everyone is telling me its not happy.
anw
we had long hrs of talk.
i was like practically falling aslp.
:/
it was toooo long.
but i did learned smth.
i hope*

Big Thank you(s)
to those who made my 08v-day a memorable one!
:D
-ning!
(of cause, needless to say)
-Yj
-Melo
-Kraven
-Janice
-Joyce
-Carmen
-Jiajia
-Quel
-Ee Liu
-Janice(F41)
-alvin
-Emily
-Char
-Tania
-Meng Tian
-Daphie
-Wilson
-Shahrul
-Jingyi

thank you all for your gifts.
regardless of its size.
still
i really appreciated it
:)

pics at random order.
*not all the gifts are here though.
cause i have ate most them.
:P

i got beard papa for my dear(s).

rose from my dear, ning.

my nickname from my buddy.
:/

i've no idea why kraven got me this too.
:/
but i think im using it for facial.
hahas.
:)

from, carmen!
she's so cute.
a pebble picked from today's fire drill.
hahas.

im gonna put on lots of weight in no time.
:)

smth is missing.
its you.

Tag replies.
Happy v-day!
:)

lihui-
hahas.
no la.
not that many.
lesser then last year leh.
hahas.
alright, i will.
if there's shopping!
:)

SUGARgirl-
alright.
i wouldnt force you.
but im glad your a friend then an enemy.
:)
hahas.
yeah.
i've no idea either.
my blog is getting "tasty".

ning-
aiyo.
nice ah.
where got ugly.
but dont worry.
no shuai ge(s) vists my blog.
:)

SPICYgirl-
hahas.
thank you.
:)

SWEETgirl-
hahas.
thank you.
:)

BITERgirl-
i've no iea.

KRAVEN!-
hahas.
stupid.
you can be the Happygirl then.

YJ-
i dont know what to reply you.
:/

jesLYN-
hello!
im sorry.
but i dont rmb you.
:(
your from?

2008-02-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

out of 10.
9 would die in the years to come.

sorry for the late wishing.
Happy Chinese New Year Guys!
hope everyone received many many angbao(s)!
:)

2 weekdays
and
2 weekends
sure passed real fast.
its back to the books tml!
argh.
the sight of it puts me to slp alrd.
:/

but
there's still smth to be happy about.
its been 4days i last seen all my dear(s)!
hope you guys are doing fine.
:)
see you soon.
esp ning!

here's a short summary
of what i had been up to for the pass few days.

06/02/08
wed.
-sch's CNY celebration!
-we performed, as usual.
dint went too well though.
:/

07/02/08
thur.
-bai nian at my house.
-went popo's house.
-the end.

08/02/08
friday.
-bai nian.
-went jiu gong's place.
-went pasir ris for visting.
-sat a cab who doesn know the route to pasir ris.
ended up at changi prison
and
ended up paying 20+ bucks.
:/
-gamble gamble.
i was the banker!
:D
-the end.

09/02/08
sat.
-woke up real early.
got my passport done.
waited for 3hrs++
-went OG with my mummy.
-the end.

10/02/08
today!
-went to curch.
its been ages!
-lunch with the family.
-went orchard with mummy.
-shopping!
-the end.

my 4 days just passed, like this.

random pic(s)

i've no idea why i took this too.
hahas.

with my dearest!

I LOVE HER.
and who doesnt know.
:D

my love, jiajia!

melo-lo-lo!

ning, daphie and mel.
:)
sweettt!

first day of achivements.
:)

my pig oh sis.
:)

second day of final achivement!
:)

my newly passport.
beijing here i come!

tag replies!
sorry for the late replies.
Happy Chinese New Year to all.
:)

Hiro-
hey!
hope your doing fine w/o my company.
i'll be getting it back pretty soon.
(i hope.)
:/
take care!

SUGARgirl-
Hello.
:)
thanks for your compliment.
hopefully i'll get back my phone soon.
:/
thank you.
anw.
mind telling me your name?

s-
you too.
take care man.
dont worry.
i'll call you when i get my phone back.
:)

lihui-
you too!
:)
sorry for the late wishing.
but im not too late.
hahas.
yeah!
and
i got free incoming.
can talk all day.

SALTYgirl-
hello.
pweety?
no such word eh?

2008-02-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hello.
im wooden.

an empty heart.

maybe
its best you had no feelings.
then
you wouldnt give your trust to anyone.
you wouldnt give your love to anyone.
maybe
it best to be a loner.
no friends.
no company.

then
you wouldnt need to feel all
upset.
angry.
pain.
dumb.

one with no feelings
need not bother whats happening around them.
cause they cant even feel a thing.

tag replies!
hweh!

bert-
glad to hear your feeling better now.
its not the end yet.
so dont give up hope.
there's still Os to ping.
jiayou!
you can do it.
im always here supporting you.
see you soon.

quel-
dont worry.
see you soon in dance!
or zhou laoshi will be coming after me soooon.

lihui-
lihui!
im feeling much better alrd.
thank you.
i'll be back in sch soon.
hope to see you!

2008-02-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

To win
someone has to always give in.

Cheer Uppp my dearest bert.
:DD

yupp.
im home-ed.
missed sch today.
but there's no diff.
im still stuck with the damn books.
:/
but im glad to say
the fever has subsided though.
but still not feeling that good.
and
i guessed i've missed out quite number of stuff.
-sorry ning,
i wasnt around with you today.
:(
-sorry mel.
was supp to go out shopping with you.
-missed prefect's installation.
they did call out my name though.
:)
-heard about theft in sch.
what an unplesant thing.
and lastly.
-i miss my dear friends!
esp ning!
:(
cant wait to see you guys soon.
take care my dear(s)!

tag replies.
hello!

TangXp-
Hweh hweh!
yeah.
im feling a lil better now.
thank you.
:)
hahas.
your welcome.
im doing a free advertisment for you.
miss you too.

lihui-
lihui!
dont worry.
im strong.
:)
i'll be okay.
see you soon in sch!
miss you.

2008-01-31T17:04:00.000+08:00

Red red red.
im alrd in the chinese new year mood.

red puffy cheeks.
red thick lips.
burning hot body.
(yeah, im always that hot. :D)
hahas.
im down with a fever again.
and
it feels totally horrible.
you dont feel like slping.
dont feel like eating.
you just dont feel like doing anything.
it sucks.
the hotness in my body its totally underable.
its like a everlasting heat burning in you.
it wouldnt go off.
and
tears wouldnt stop streaming down
my red hot cheeks.
its SERIOUSLY TOTALLY UNCOMFORTABLE.
i even feel like bathing in ice water now!
too bad.
i dont have a bathtub.
:(

while im trying to struggle out of hell now.
my dear(s) are all at dance.
its CNY rehearsal today.
and im missing it.
sorry dear(s).
esp ning-
i hope your not feeling lonely.
and i know dear mel wouldnt leave you alone too.
i really wish i could be joining you guys now.
i must have missed out lots of fun.
:(

sorry to got you girls worried in sch too.
Big Thank You(s) to-
-Ang!
the machou one.
:D
who practically carried me all the way.
what a sweetheart eh.
thank you jie.

-mel!
my love.
who i just realised she's so strong.
hahas.
thank you.
:)

-partner!
okay.
i know its like a yearly routine for you.
hahas.
thank you.
:)

-TangXp!
the one who lent me her boobs to lean on!
hahas.
claiming its a comfortable cushion.
thank you.
:)

-rachel!
you looked more xinku than me la.
hahas.
thank you for your cooling "icepack".
:)

-yj!
who ask if i was going to die.
hahas.
thanks for your concern.
:)
last but not least.
-ning!
if you had been there.
im sure you'll be takin care of me too.
you must had been really worried.
talk to you soon!

how lonely you can ever be?

tag replies!
hello.
:)

yj-
hahas.
i was too gullible.

s-
hey!
take care man.
its been ages i last heard from you.

lihui-
no lo.
its a mian qiang smile.
i can tell one hor.
huh.
really?!
i tht you were looking for kwei yee.
sorry.
:(

TangXp-
Hweh!
hahas.
yeah.
you better be honoured.
:)

2008-01-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

ain't the same.
from your heart & your mouth.

Beijing here i come?

lesson time passed pretty fast today.
*thumbs up.
esp chinese remedial.
but i dint get to support my softballers friends.
and
watch the match.
sadly.
due to dance.
but
we managed to catch a sneak preview from a "high seating".
:)
and i heard you guys won!!
although some stupid(s) insisted your lost.
(which i almost believed.)
anyway.
CONGRATS!
all the best for this Thursday's!
:DDD

lastly.
i LOVE none other than TanQianning!
she's the gal.
who made my day.
:)
thank you my dear.
esp the special gift.

Happy Birthday TangXp!
sweetttt 16!

i cant ignore.
i cant pretend.
im ain't you.

tag replies!
:D

SUGARgirl-
hello.
its nice to know someone still cares for me.
thank you.
:)

Devil-
idiot.
hahas.
you shld know its for you.
yeah.
while im one of the angels.
one of the few.
:)

lihui-
:(
lihui pian wo.
you still look so sad today.
not the lihui i first met.
cheer up alright.
there's sure a way for you.
dont give up!!
:)

2008-01-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

Hello.
im back.

its a whole new year.
a new start.
a new beginning to everything.
and
all i hope for this year
that it would just be a better year.
please.

we're living in a world of fear.
i'll never expect whats gonna happen to me tml.
today,
i maybe rich.
tml,
i maybe left with nth.
today,
i maybe in a pink of health.
tml,
i maybe breathing my last breath.
its just so scary.

but for now.
i'll just live my life to its fullest.
even you guys out to make my life like hell.
those friends who just pretends to be my friend.
those who just wouldnt stop bitching about me everyday.

if you dont like others to bitch about you.
why do you still bitch about others?
if you dont want others to betray you.
why do you still betray others?
check yourself first!
before saying others.

have you ever thought.
it always ended up to be your friends who betrays you?

2008-01-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

sorry.
blog is currently down.

thank you for visting.
:)

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Wahahahas.
Happy New Year!
:)

2007-12-31T22:40:00.000+08:00

Time
to move on.

in just a while more.
its so long
2007.
and welcome
2008.

this year
has been a really different year for me.
it like its been
two separate years in one year.

the beginning of the year were all the ups.
while
the ending were all the downs.
whats in for 2008?
more for sure.
wishing each and everyone
A Happy upcoming new year!
all the best to you guys.
esp the ppl who will be in the same boat as me next year.
O levels~
:/
study hard guys!

this year.
i made many new friends.
and needless to say.
i lost a couple.
still.
i wanna thank all
who once used to be a friend of mine.
and
who're still my friend.
and
promises to be my lifetime friend.
(better keep your word!)
thank you all for being a friend of huien's.
:)

*drum rolls.
first on the list
of cause
is no other then
Tan Qianning!

ning-
you had been such a great friend.
and you know that.
:)
i wouldnt still be here if it wasnt for you.
(probably dead.)
hahas.
your presence makes alot of diff.
and you also know that.
:)
hahas.
alright.
actually you basically know everything.
its all felt in the heart.
last few words before i end.
i love you!
even if the dream wld to come true.
i know the ending will turn out diff.
right?
i know you will agree with me.
:)
thank you for everything.

thank you for being a friend of huien's and once a friend of huien's.
-janice.
-yj.
-daphie.
-mel.
-nigel.
-alvin.
-daniel.
-el.
-sly.
-kenneth.
-ariel.
-emily.
-charmaine.
-rachel f.
-grace.
-ly.
-kengling.
-jasmine.
-sherlene.
-joyce.

sorry if i had missed anybody out.

2007-12-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

Pictures
shall speak for itself.

*in random order.

The Subway's celebration!

siti & i.

mother marge & i.

big mama & i.

dear karen & i.

my aunty & my sissis.

sissis & i.

Happy Birthday Mummy!
:D

my sissis dying of boredom.

my daddy!
:D

sweetest couple.
:)

sisters.

its a raining day.

the end.

tag replies.
sorry for the really late replies.

quel-
hey.
yeah.
i cant believe it either.
hahas.

ning-
:)
im alright.

Hiro-
hahas.
thanks.
you too.
:)

yj-
idiot!

Kengling-
eeeyer.
i rather die.
hahas.
anyway.
thanks.
you too.
:)

Jenny-
hello.
:)

sherlene-
hey.
thank you.
you too.
:)

ashpro-
your welcome.
:)
alright.

Dog-
whoever you're.
although i dont really know what that means.
dont you've anything better to do?

sly-
hahas.
thats fast.
thank you.
dont need to say.
i know your a true friend.
dont worry.
:)

2007-12-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

wishes
do come true i guess.

i always wanted to take the ambulance.
:)

Goodbye subway.
no more
-hi, welcome.
-bye. thank you, see you again.
the days of subway are over.
and its back to the books!
BORING.
:/

12/12/07.
is the day i guess i'll never forget.
the day i tht i was leaving earth.
leaving everything behind left undone.
leaving all my loves ones w/o bidding goodbye.
leaving all my pain behind.
i guess
leaving all my pain behind was the only reason
i so wanted to give up then.

it was totally not my day.
lady luck was not by my side.
:(
but God was.

everything just dint went well that very day.
i over slept.
:/
and was super duper late for work.
got to work just before the lunch crowd got in though.
phew~
then got scolded by an customer.
crazy old angmoh.
saying that he price of sandwich was too expensive.
and this is what he had.
-cct ($4.30)
-add bacon ($1)
-reg coffee ($1.80)
-1 cookie ($1.10)
total- $8.20
being a cashier isnt as easy as i tht after all.
i kept explaining to him.
but he just kept yelling at me!
:(
which got the attention of the lunch crowd.
everyone's eyes were all focused at me.
i was sooooo embarrassed!
i dint know what to do.
i cried for my manager.
yaya! (big mama)
and big mama came to my rescue.
phew~
giving that old stingy stinking angmoh a 10% off.
and he finally shut up.
what a day.
but this wasnt the end.

after the busy hours.
i finally had the time to go to the toilet and release myself.
:S
while washing my hands.
out of the sudden.
I really dont know why.
the toilet seemed to be spinning non-stop.
andi felt like my energy was all being sucked up.
i barely even had the strength to stand.
i fell backwards.
and
there was totally no one in the toilet
to come to my rescue then.
just my luck.
:/
i reached for my phone.
but i couldnt even dialed a number.
then
shit!
my lungs started to get on me.
it went all tight.
next sec.
i knew i had difficulty breathing.
and
my tummy started to ache.
the pain was totally unendurable.
everything was like out to get me.
i tht i was really gonna die then.
but i wasnt.
its just not my time yet.

an aunty (cleaner of the toilet)
knew i was from subway.
she asked if i was okay.
i think.
i was semi unconscious then.
but this is what a person wld ask a person at such circumstances.
so shld be la.
and she got my asst manager down.
siti.
if im not wrong.
siti kept going
ah gal!
ah gal!
she even slapped me.
:/
tried to kept me conscious.
and she kept talking to me.
i dont now what though.
but she kept asking if im okay.
then she got big mama down.
big mama carried me out of the toilet.
man.
she's sure machou.
:D

then
they called the ambulance down.
caused
they totally dint know what to do.
sway sway.
the ambulance was caught in the jam.
according to them.
and took nearly half an hour.
ohmygod.
i really felt like dying then.
while waiting for the ambulance to arrive.
i couldnt stop crying out your name. :(
the ambulance arrived.
got me on the stretcher thingy.
and headed for the ambulance.
ohmygod.
and
i am so embarrassed.
we actually made a round singpost to get to the ambulance.
caused
it was raining then.
guess the whole singpost saw me
in my ugly state!
:S

alright.
cut shorttt.
a lesson learned.
:/

and im on a week mc.
for what?
when i dont need it alrd.
sneaked out of house the next day.
and went for my very last day of work.
i know its wrong.
but its my last day.
heng my mummy dint find out.
:/

HuiEn has really gotten stronger alright.
i managed to
bared with the discomfort for the whole day.
bided goodbye with everyone.
yasser (one of my colleague)
even came down to let me take his order for the very last time.
i was really touched.
i almost cried.
everyone say their goodbye speech(s).
mother marge cried.
followed by siti.
but
i told myself i wouldnt cry.
and
i did it!
i dint even teared.
:)

alright.
i've finally come to an end of my super long post.
and i wonder hows my dear friend.
tan qianning doing!
i hope your fine.
we've lots to catch up!
:)
and i also hope.
my partner janice is doing fine.
my buddies,
daniel & alvin.
my brother,
sly.
and all my dear friends.
take care everyone!

i'll be back soon, i guess.

not to live in the past
but to live in the present.

ps. check out our share blog.
en&ning.
:)

2007-12-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

Heehaw.
life still carries on.

home from work!
sometimes.
i just love the customers.
they really cheer me uppppp lots.
whereas for some.
they totally screw my day uppp even mooore.
and i just feel like slapping them strgt in the face.
i just dont understand why they wanna be such a pain to ppl.
ass-holes!

i dont know if i say the right thing.
i was just being honest.
i hope you wont take it personal.
but i doubt you can even read this.
:/
sorry.

easier said than done.
said and done.
the end.

anddddddd.
i love my dearest friend,
TAN QIANNING!

dont worry about me.
im doing pretty fine.
no silly stuffs.
promised.
we'll meet up soon!
:D

tag replies!

sly-
yeah.
im not ashamed to be a les.
:)
huh.
what abit?

quel-
you've been missed.
glad your back.
:)
hope so.
i doubt they will do anything for us.
:/

2007-12-06T23:30:00.000+08:00

Happy sixth?
i miss us. :(
with my dearest ning!
:D

i love you.

we sure had fun.
:D
i love you my dear!
its been ages we spent almost a day tgt.
and
thank you for accompanying me.
if not i wouldnt know what would had happened to me.
:/
(picture will be posted in our share blog.)
do pop by!
:)

im glad to say!
ROD is finally over!
HIPHIP.
:D
rod was held ytd on the 5th.
mel's bday!
the weather was bad though.
couldnt stop raining.
till 8pm++
(i think.)
still.
we managed to get over with it.
it isnt a easy job.
i doubt i would wanna plan a next rod.
:/

still.
thank you everyone for your help & support.
without each and everyone's help.
i doubt we could even had this rod.
thank you all for coming.
:)
though the weather was super jialat.
:/

THANK YOU(s)
-seniors.
-ning.
-janice.
-bk.
-joyce.
-mel.
-daphie.
-ee ching.
-stella.
and the rest of the dancers!
:)
(sorry, cant rmb all. old alrd. :/)

although it wasnt as fun as it was supp to be.
at least we got over with it.
:(

tada!
the pictures shall speak for the day.

everyone feels love.
in my small lil cosy room.
:)

bbq-ing under the rain.
:/
poor mother.
gotta hold the umbrella.
:(

everyone working hard!
:)

stealla & mel under an.. umbrella.
ella~ ella~
hahas.

jane is sure hardworking.
:)
thank you gal.

thats me!
wrapping the wettt tables with newspaper.
:)

ouchhh.
hot~
like me!

hahas.
alright, just kidding.

waiting for food.
hungry~

Birthday gal!
:)

oops.
stella got cut out.
:/

mel, shuai ge is here la!
(i dont know who's the camera man for this pic though.)
hahas.

awww.
so sweet.
ning!~ where're you?!
hahas.

satay!!!
yum-yum!

Happy Belated Birthday Mel! :)

after the clearing.
resting~

yeah!~
finally over.
:D

sad to say.
some couldnt make it.
:((
-prefects had the stupid camp.
(but i dint go. :D)

-quel
who went for her camp.

-jiajia
who went genting.

-juniors
overseas.

you guys were missed!
:(

take care everyone.
see ya soon!
:)

tag replies!
hello.
:)

anonymous-
yup!
and im proud to say im a lesbian!
:D

sly-
eh.
when was i.
dont anyhow ah.

ning-
awww.
my laogong is back to speak up for me yeah.
:))

2007-12-02T20:58:00.000+08:00

every
beginning has an ending.

countless.

Home-ed all day today.
couldnt get myself out of bed.
my damn freaking migraine is back.
:/
slept the whole entire day.
and
i have just wasted almost an entire day of my life by sleeping.
i left with less than 4hrs for today.
and how am i gonna spent these few hrs.
hmmmm.
(let me think)
getting myself
-all angry over someone whose not worth it?
nah.
-all upset over someone whose not worth it?
nah.
-not giving a damn about it?
yeah!
:)
cause
i have totally no more energy to get angry or upset.
my whole body feels stiff.
i dont feel like moving.
the fever is getting on me.
:S

night shift tml.
:/
followed by the following day.
i'll be working my very first OT this tuesday.
:)
every tue is when subway does their spring cleaning.
we scrub the floor!
hahas.
doesnt it feel like cinderella?
i was telling everyone.
siti our asst manager was our evil step-mother.
:D
hahas.
and lets just wait for our prince charming to rescue us.
:))
so far.
the latest record for OT is 2am.
lets see if we're gonna break the record.
wish me luck in being "cinderella"for a night.
hahas.

i'll be leaving subway soon.
:(
and its back to the books!
B-O-R-I-N-G!

wondering hows my dear friend
qianning.
doing right now.
i miss you gal!
:(
too bad.
you cant feel the anger with me!
>:(
HMPH.

heartbreak?
i don't know why they call it heartbreak.
It feels like every other part of my body is broken too.
:(

tag replies-

ning-
thank you.
im alright.
:)
yar.
I miss you my dear!
:(

Jt-
=.=
jealous?
im not!
nth to be jealous about.
im being a hero everyday myself.
:D
i've the heroes meal almost everyday.
hahas.

2007-11-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

:(
i dont know.
unstoppable tears.

was late for work today.
:/
got scolded.
wasnt in a mood to do anything.
hardly talk.
hardly smile-ed the whole morning.
i dont know why.
its hard to put aside things which keeps coming into your mind.
i tried to keep myself really busy.
even running on the spot when there was nth to do.
still.
it was of no use.
i just couldnt get it out of my mind.
:(

dint really served customers today.
helped in wrapping the sandwichs and sauce.
but.
i was really piss-ed off.
>:(
sure not talk about it.

early morning shift tml.
:/
cant afford to be late anymore.
hopefully i'll be able to wake up.
or.
im so dead!

easier said then done.
two words.
thats takes everything out from you to say.

Happy Birthday Nigel!
:D

tag replies.
Hello.
:)

ning-
hahas.
we shall see whose tougher.
you've yet to see my tough side.
:)
hahas.
dont worry.
its not all rotten.
its still soft on the outside.
:D
qqhuahua.
hahas.
love you my dear friend.

quel-
thanks.
:)
you take care too.
see you around!

Jt-
Hey!
:)
EEEEE!
you?!!
one of the Heroes?
hmmm.
i doubt so.
:/
hahas.

2007-11-28T22:32:00.000+08:00

its.
the eating season!

im craving for chocolates!
:D

promotion period has finally arrived!
it was the first day of promotion today.
the promotion lasts
from 28th nov - 11th dec.
its call the Heroes meal!
hahas.
but only.
cold cut trio.
oven roasted chicken.
and.
turkey is in the promotion.
buy any one of these three sandwiches.
and it comes with a regular meal at a cheaper price.
cheaper from what you normally pay.
:)
its quite worth it la.
hahas.

it was pretty pack during lunch hour.
i was like.
ohmygod.
long queue!!
:D
telling my friends.
hahas.
working weeks in subway.
today was the longest queue i ever seen.
hahas.
and.
im happy for subway too.
business is finally good.
:)

but there's a price to pay.
we dint stop serving for 2hrs+ today.
and my duty was heavier today.
:/
i had to toast the sandwiches.
take orders.
and do veges and sauce.
i was claim to be the smallest size among all.
(to squeeze among them.)
so i was in charge of the toaster!
when the toaster beeps.
all will scream for my name.
ohmygod.
i felt so popular for once.
:D
hahas.
just kidding.
i felt under alot of pressure instead.
everything had to be done so quick.
:S
we were all rushing & rushing.
did our best not to let the customer wait for too long.
but still.
there were a number of unhappy customers.
had to face many blackie faces.
:/

and i might not get to serve customers tml.
:(
cause i got my hand burnt.
there are many red spots on it.
and its burning.
:/
plus the skin at my knuckle area is peeling .
gross~
my friends all grab my hand after the busy hours.
and peeled the skin!
it was so "nice" of them.
hahas.
but they applied ointment on it after that.
still.
they helped me with all the washing.
(:
i was touch-ed.
soaked my hand in colddd water for really long.
the red spots are fianlly fading off though.
and
im gonna wrap my hand up today with the ointment!
hopefully my hand gets better tml.
:/
so i can help out!

and
i tht i saw ac in subway today!
hahas!
but.
it was a false alarm.
it was only a look alike.
heng i dint call out ac.
if not pai-seh.
hahas.
our sch npcc guys drops by subway today.
it feels weird serving the ppl you know.
:/
and if its my enemy i'll probably do smth to the sandwich.
muhahahaha!
so.
be careful if you come subway to eat.
if i dont like you.
you-shld-know-what.
hahas.
:)

morning shift again tml.
and im like always late for morning shift.
i cant wake up!
:/
so i've decided im using 3 alarm clocks tonight!
:)

the good days of subway has arrived.
:)
hahas.

and.

ROD is canceled.
everything is just way too last min.
and almost all the seniors cant make it.
im sorry mel.
:(
and dont worry about your job alright.
:)
there are still a number of good ppl out there.
and.
you got my support!
you go gal!
:D
lovesen.

to be dumb.
then to believe.
belive in smth that wouldnt last.
it just wouldnt last.
wouldnt it?

to my dearest friend-
Tan Qianning!
:)
dont think too much at home alright.
im just a phone call away.
if im serving the customers.
i'll rise my hand and show my palm.
and say wait.
to pick up your call.
:)
and i'll get sack strgt away.
hahas.
take care my dear.
and.
dont worry about me.
im tough man.
:DD
yeah.
hahas.
I LOVE YOU!

tag replies!
thank you ppl for keeping my tagboard alive.
:)

Sly-
nope.
i dint.
dont worry i havent forgotten about you.
:)
take care man.

Hiro-
hahas.
but too bad.
I dont do cashier unless its not lunch hour.
i might be the one.
:)

eL-
eh.
i serve ppl very li hai one okay.
you havent see only.
the sandwich very YUMMY de.
i bet you'll ask for more!
hahas.
:D

Ariel-
rielriel!
:)
you've been missed too!
anytime.
cant wait to go shopping with you.
shop till we drop!
:))

alright now.
GOODNIGHT EVERYONE!
:)

2007-11-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

whats up?

kinda busy lately.
rod is coming up!
and its quite a last min thing.
hopefully its goes well.

sigh...
:/
im quite scare though.
but this year must be a success!
no matter what.
:)

Attention!
singpost subway is having a promotion from the 28th onwards!
:D
buy any selected sub on the promotion you will get a free regular meal along with it.
SO.
what you waiting for.
do drop by subway.
if your unlucky enough.
i might be the one serving you.
(:
hahas.

tag replies!
hello everyone. (:

Nic-
yeah.
just nice i left work alrd that day.
bad timing.
your shld had came earlier.
:)
i cant be bothered with her.
i shall just.
bare with it!
i got patience one.
hahas.

xuanqi-
ohmygod.
ahqi!!
i miss you loads too.
:(
we shall meet up someday.
:)

daphne-
daphie!
yu read my blog too?!!
i dint know.
thanks. :)
rod rod rod!!

melody-
awww.
my love.
you finally tagged me.
:D
hahas.
chalet is coming!
:))

s-
:)
hello.
is this sly?

2007-11-20T23:57:00.000+08:00

wondering.
hows tomorrow gonna be like.

i'll reach for you. :)

work has been intensive tiring lately.
although business hasnt been good for the pass few days.
still.
there's lots lots lots of washing to be done everyday.
hopefully business will get back as good as it used to be.
:/

morning shift today.
i was early.
:D
(proud of myself.)
by 3mins.
hahas.
today was..
40-60
good! :) and bad! :(
the crew leader for today's shift
scolded me in front of the customers couple of times.
although it wasnt my fault.
:(
i just nod my head like it was really my fault.
and apologised continuously to the customer.
but
it really wasnt my fault.
:(
this was what happened-
she key-ed in the wrong amt for the sandwich a lady ordered.
over charging the lady.
but she kept insisting she dint.
getting into an argument with the lady.
then when she finally realised she did.
probably to avoid embarrassment.
she went.
aiya.
again you la.
(facing me.)
i always tell you to write the name of the sandwich properly
on the sandwich
you always write wrongly.
and apologised to the customer saying im new and so on.
but
hello.
i did wrote correctly.
even the customer knew i did.
and it's not just this incident with the lady she puts the blamed on me.
:(
its like everything she does wrongly she blames me.
i was also put in a tough spot today.
:(
the asst manager and the crew leader
were on the same shift as me today.
they were commanding me non-stop.
and both gave opp commands from each other.
one calls me to do the vege and toast.
while the other ask me to
wrap the sandwich and help with the cookies.
i really tried my best to do both.
i was like flying here and there today.
i could almost faint.
i cried for help~
:(
after lunch hour.
when there were no customer.
my asst manager and crew leader almost got into an argument.
and i was stuck in between.
my asst manager told me not to listen to my crew leader.
my crew leader wasnt happy about it.
but still i tried to listen to both.
:(
i really tried.
early morning shift tml.
0730am.
:/
hopefully i can wake up.
and its with my crew leader again.
but.
this time
no asst manager.
i dont know if its a good thing or a bad thing.
:(
at times subway can be really fun though.
tag replies!
Kraven-
hey.
yeah.
thanks for keeping my tagboard alive. :)

2007-11-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

a girl cant help.
falling in love.

as you walk away, i count the steps you take.

morning shift today.
did mostly of serving.
although lunch hour was really busy.
still.
business wasnt as good.
and we were all quite upset.

anyway.
THANK YOU BUDDY for dropping by today!
:D
you sure did surprised me.
i dint see you at all.
but this show im a hardworking worker.
pays full attention to my work.
(making my own sandwich.)
hahas.

morning shift again tml.
and this time i'll be working with the.
BOSS!
ohmygod.
im quite scare though.
hopefully tml goes well.
:/

was out with yj today!
met her after work.
its been quite a while since i last went out with her.
did some catching up.
she thought of cutting hair.
but then fickle minded.
she decided not to.
so we went around shopping.
and i got myself a $39.00 "basket" from ripcurl!
and she got herself a shirt full of lines.
hahas.
after a fruitful trip.
it was home sweet home! :)

what a tiring day~

Tag replies!

Joyce-
your off to zhuhai alrd. :(
nvm.
you'll be back to see this. :)
dont worry.
i'll take care of myself.
say me.
you shld also take care of yourself!

tania-
I LOVE NIANIA. :D

Nic-
mrs zhou?
who's that?
hahas.
sort of.
where, im not telling you! :)
its a secret.
hahas.
i will.
thank you. :)

Hiro-
hahas.
cheater!
you knew the place.
so it was easier for you.

2007-11-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

Learn from your mistakes.
and never repeat it again.

its only a bad fall, i'll pick myself up. :)

lost in appetite.
or just
too lazy to eat?
where has my HUGE appetite gone to?

first day of morning shift!
i learnt how to do preparations.
-tuna.
-teriyaki.
-steak.
-ham.
it was not say a easy thing to do.
there was lot to remember.
and LOTS of washing to be done.
i had to wash non-stop today. :/
and when it was lunch hour.
man.
the crowd just keep coming.
from 12-1pm++.
we had to serve non-stop.
we couldnt even take a break.
i had to do the veges.
toast the bread.
and still had to help out at the counter.
morning shift is really different from night.
night isnt a rush as morning.

i even embarrassed myself in front of the customers!
i was rushing to open the oven and to the counter.
that i dint realise how slippery the floor was.
i slide and hit my head.
ohmygod.
i was so embarrassed!!
But phew.
there werent any shuai ge(s) around.
hahas.
back to night shift tml.
i much used to night. :)
i wouldnt even have the time to think.

sorry for the late tag replies!
i just realised i havent replied your tags.
sorry.
Jx-
hello. :)
melody-
awww.
*covers face.
im shy.
hahas. :)
Nic-
hey!
how come you can hear mine!
Joyce-
Laogong!
hahas.
its been great to have your company.
and
you'll be leaving on friday. :(
i'll miss you.
and please ah.
take good care of yoyrself la.
i cant go zhuhai with you.
you dont have to get me anything. :)
just get back safely.
i'll be happy.
take care!
lots of love, en.

2007-11-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes.
you dont have a choice.

i have heard more then enough. thank you.

im sorry.
havent been updating my blog lately.
I hardly have time.
been caught up with work lately.
night shifts are S-U-P-E-R tiring.
but this week there's gonna be a change.
Im put to morning shift for some days!
that means, less sleep. :(
and i heard its easier.
hope so.
work has been pretty smooth for now.
just that there's a number of complaints from young customer. :/
and some irritating idiots!
hopefully rest of the weeks are gonna be as smooth as my used to be smooth hands. :(
someone please get me hand cream!~

thank you all who came down and support me. (:
its been appreciated!
esp. joyce.
who was down with a fever still came and surprise me ytd.
Thank you! (:
take care and get well soooon!

its a special day today!
November the 13th. :)

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY NING!

i love you my dear friend.
no matter what happens to either one of us.
stay strong!

2007-11-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

im feeling so tired now.
I'm tired of hiding behind these smiles.

a promise we knew we couldnt hold.

im hungry!
and there's no food to eat.
parents are out for a wedding dinner.
leaving me and my sis.
and there's totally nothing to cook.
someone please delivery us food. :(

and its finally a less busy day today.
phew~
i should be happy.
but im not.
was laaate for tuition today.
punishment-
tuition lasted for 2hrs. :/
i was really sleepy.
kept yawning continuously.
my teach couldnt stand me either.
but.
i cant help it.
im really tired.

but maybe,
this is the best way i guess.
even if im gonna tired myself out.
just remember to come and visit me with a chocolate basket.
thank you. :)

bye-bye emo?

get well soon YJ! (:

i dont have the courage to face it.
just let me run away.
tiring myself out.
so i wouldnt think.
lying to myself.
so i wouldnt think.
i just dont wanna feel this way anymore.
its tiring.
emo saturday.
tag replies!
sorry for the late replies.
been really busy lately.
Hiro-
Hello. (:
yeah.
its gonna be one busy busy holiday.
anyway,
smile more! :D
Jingyi-
thank you. (:
joyce-
hey my dear!
dont worry about me.
i wont do anything foolish.
im all grown up. (:
hahas.
and you know what?
i love you!
thank you for staying by my side.
take care!
your going zhuhai pretty soon.
i'll miss you. ):
but please dont come back until you get my present.
hahas.
kidding.
and dont you worry.
i'll keep myself alive till you get back. (:

2007-10-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

okay.
it wasnt me, but why am i reacting to it?

the pain hurts, till it numbs.

what a boring day today.
home-ed all day.
slept all day.
ate all day.
its back to school tomorrow.
and back with the books!!! :/
RAHHH.
lazy to read.
but the Os is next year.
maybe its time to get serious.
*thinking.

lying to myself maybe dumb.
but i just cant accept the fact.
aint i good enough?
so, i had choose to lie to myself.
and i know this lying wouldnt last for long.
but, for now it will.
till its time, i guess.
still.
i prefer the lifts. (:
tag replies!
sly-
yo yo!
whats up man.
hahas.
thank you. (:
i know what to do now.
your right.
i gotta wake myself up. (:
and.
you think twice before you decide alright.
come back to school! (:

2007-10-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

world of lies.
but, who doesnt lie?

i choose to, lie to myself.
collection of results today.
mummy & daddy meets the teacher.
mr teo wasnt around.
so they spoke to cai cai instead.
went the earliest slot.
dint really got to see anyone.
home-ed.
the ride home was, HELL.
maths tuition later in the afternoon.
and rest of the day was home-ed.
boring day.
and.
boring post.

im feeling all green.
im feeling mad.
im feeling sad.
and.
i feel cheated.
im angry.
yet sadness conquers.
i'll just cry it all out.
im useless.
someone wake me up, please.
tag replies!
Hello everyone. (:
N1k3-
yeah.
hopefully.
really?!
you were doing duty that day?
but in my heart i went oh shit all the time. :/
ants-
thank you for your comforting words and cheering. (:
Raquel-
(:
tania-
:D
i love tania.
W_chuan-
i know.
but every mistake makes me lose hope.
still.
thank you. (:

2007-10-24T18:14:00.000+08:00

i was silly.
to had trusted you.

what is tomorrow gonna be like?

the primary sixes dropped by our school today.
my cousin was there too.
he even commented on our dance, so-so.
we performed a short part of our SYF for them.
and.
as usual.
i made several mistakes.
i lost balance.
but what can i do.
its over.
and its probably the last time dancing anyway.
the rest of the day was talk after talk.

just when things doesnt seem to go the way i always wanted it to be.
i start to lose hope.
just when it comes back to haunt me.
i cry, hoping it goes away.
just when the people i love turn their backs on me.
i wish i was dead.
just when hope is given to me.
i lost it.
just when all that's happening starts to bring me down.
i hope to be saved.
emo has gotten into me again. :(

i was looking through all the photos.
thinking back.
i really miss those days.

although you may not be able to see this.
i know we are no longer as close as we used to be.
we dont share things like we used to anymore
laughs much as we used to.
we are just not like how we used to be.
we are maybe just friends now.
but your always im bestest friend. :)
and i really miss you my dear friend. :(

the used to be three crazy us.
we used to be the most crazy in dance.
doing all sorts of stupid and idiot stuff.
now.
we no longer play like we used to.
we probably gotten more serious instead. :(

everything is changing.
for the better?
or for the worse?

tag replies!

N1K3-
?
why?
what happened?

sly-
hahas.
you think highly of me ah.

2007-10-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

Please understand.
i dint mean anything.

i just wanna say how sorry i am, to you.

Im sorry for the way I feel, and always making you mad.
Im sorry for my actions, and always making you feel uneasy.
Im sorry for always being emo, neglecting you.
Im sorry for the way I wonder, and always questioning you why.
Im sorry for revealing my weaknesses, and all i do is cry.
Im sorry for the way I feel, and always thinking too far.
Im sorry for my selfish ways, and never think for you
Im sorry for always being the stubborn me, and not looking in your view.
Im sorry for my childishness, and not acting mature.
Im sorry i was the one always creating the problems.
and.
im sorry for everything, how i always treated you.

to you.
you may think i dont care for you.
or maybe never.
and your probably nothing to me.
but.
your wrong.
i do care, just that you dont see it or do you feel it.
in fact.
you hold an very important place in my heart.
cause.
Your the one i care for.
You are the one that makes me smile.
You are the one that makes me cry.
You are the one I wouldnt wanna lose for all time.

i just hope you understand.

what you say, really hurt me.

tag replies!
sorry for the late replies.

Nic-
oh my god.
really?!
you shld had gone up and make friends.
?
you serious?
Jt-
ni hao. :D
Kengling-
:DD
:D-
hello. :)
eL-
EEEEEE LENGGGGG. :))
hahas.
Jt, Kengling, eL-
okayyy.
all photos would be nightmare. :/
and i think worse.
i would have endless of slpless nights instead.
hahas.
kidding. :)
ash-
okay. :)

2007-10-15T06:14:00.000+08:00

sunflower?
gone, no more the cheerful me.

Good Morning!
no school today.
and everyone is probably sleeping now. :/
what do you do when you cant get to sleep?
1. count sheep?
(thats too old fashion. you count dudes now. hahas.)
2. drink a cup of milk?
( does that actually works? )
3. watch movies till you doze off?
( it doesnt work for me. it gets me more agitated, upset or high instead. )
4. talk to someone till you fall asleep?
( bad. the person falls sleep even before you do. )
5. exercise till you feel all tired?
( i got high instead. )
all failed.
and here i am.
still awake. :(
looking like one of those infected monsters from resident evil. :/
what do your do when your cant get to sleep?
any tips?

maybe
its easy for you.
but not for me.

tag replies!

Hiro-
yeah. agree.
maybe they got interested in my life.
wanted to be part of it.

tania-
thank you niania! :)
im glad i still have you.
and.
i love you too.
*hugs(s)

anon-
thank you!
it made me smiled. :)

nic-
?
really.
i thought you were good in it.
huh, how come?
no plans for the holiday?

W_chuan-
thank you for your support! :)

sly-
its okay.
you take care yar.
hahas.
yeah.
you better be man.

2007-10-13T18:07:00.000+08:00

there's no turning back now.
things just wont be like it used to.

whats wrong with being emo?

its not a crime, isnt it?
im just being emo, not a freak.
so why do you have to call me a emo freak?

im telling you.

what's emo?
-a short form for emotional.

emo people.
-has a more emotional state of mind.
-are very sensitive.

what's a freak?
-someone very abnormal.

and i happened to fall in the category of emo, NOT freak.
being emo doesnt mean im abnormal alright.
you people just despise/dislike emos.
because, you view us as suicidal, cry babies, or just weak.
but, whats wrong with that?
not everybody are strong and has a strong mind.
not everyone faces every problem they come across bravely & strongly.
(maybe, you guys do. i dont know.)
we all face things differently.
and i happened
to be one of the weak one.
yes, i admit.
im weak, im a cry baby.
and im probably not as strong as your are.
this is me.
emo me.
but whats wrong for being me?
that you guys have to come and criticize me and my blog.
saying nasty things.
have i offended you guys?
why are your judging me
when your dont really know me for who i am?

we all live different lives.
and this is the way i live my.
you may despise me for how i live my life.
but im sorry.
this is just the way i live my.
and i dont see a need why i should change.

and i just hope all this spamming ends here.
i just wanna blog peacefully.
*PEACE.
thank you.

i used to thought i was always on my own.
but,
i realised there's actually a few out there who still cares for me
and i wanna say.
thank you to you guys.
i really appreciated you guys for actually speaking up for me.
without your help.
i'll be at a helpless state. :/

THANK YOU GUYS,
i think mango sucks. :)
me. :)
anon. :)
although i dont know you guys.
but you know what,
your help meant alot to me.
really, it does.
thanks. :)

THANK YOU BUDDY,
daniel
for your help and cheering(s). :)
smile smile smile.
stay happy! :D

THANK YOU FRIEND,
nic
sure put your knowledge of ss in good use huh.
hahas.
and guess your one of the few who thinks my blog rocks though.
and,
exams are finally over!
time to play!
enjoy yourself. :)

THANK YOU B-F,
yj.
yeah,
not only do i have to handle with life drama.
there's still blog drama.
=.=
too much dramas could kill me.
but i'll survive.
and
thanks for helping me.
bu kui shi wo de best-friend ah. :)

THANK YOU MY DEAREST QIN AI DE,
jiejie. :)
although your such an idiot.
you know what.
who cares!
i still,
LOVE YOU. :D
*multi hugs for you!
(sorry no kisses. :D hahas.)

last but not least.
THANK YOU SLY.
i dint forget you alright.
your crapping did made me laugh lots.
thanks for the comforting. :)

once again,
THANK YOU ALL. :)

enjoy your upcoming holidays!
and those whose Os are coming.
wishing you guys all the very best!
jiayou! :)

im off now, so long!
*phew.
my longest post ever man.

2007-10-04T22:16:00.001+08:00

OH YEAH.

this block sucks?
dont like this blog?
THEN
why do you guys even bother reading it.
its was your choice to read it.
NOBODY FORCED YOU TO.
if you dont like my blog, dont visit it then.
visit other blogs which suits you.
i dont need such readers like YOUR.

2007-09-29T22:06:00.000+08:00

its a fact.
Every beginning has its end like every dawn has its dusk.

leaving everything to fate.

OH NO. :(
exams are just 2 days away.
S-T-R-E-S-S.
i could hardly concentrate.
today was FULL of studying though.
tuition after tuition.
but its not the end yet.
im off to study now.
*crawls away.
(im dead beat. but who cares.)
take care.
all the best to all who're studying now. :)
byeeee~

Happy Birthday to my buddy, Alvin! :D

flooding my mind with BOOKS!
BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS.
WORDS WORDS WORDS.

2007-09-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

Longing.

longing for you.

will you be happier?

the weekends are here again.
nothing but study. :(
hopefully i'll get to ti deng long tomorrow.
hahas.
back to be like a child.
anyway.
school was a total boredom today.
wasnt around for two days.
felt different.
did anyone even realised?
i guess some did though.
and
thanks guys for your concern. :)
its been appreciated.

caution against thief!
some idiotic idiot stole carmen's stuff.
whoever that idiot is.
TSK!
dont you know stealing is bad!
that idiot is sure to be punished.
huai ren wont get away with it easily.
im sorry i cant help much. :(
do cheer up carmen! :)

i was selfish.
wanting you mine.
im sorry.

2007-09-20T20:41:00.000+08:00

As you walked away.

I knew I couldnt explain to you.

i tried, but you just destroyed all my hope.
another day home-ed.
kept telling myself to pick up the book and flip it.
but, i couldnt.
my head hurts.
my heart aches.
i feel empty.
i dont feel like doing anything.
i just feel like crying.
but there's no one i can turn to.
i miss ning.
things are not the same.
and it never will be again.
your claim your are being caring.
what is caring.
caging me.
watching me.
forcing me.
your never understand how it feels.
your only knew how to say.
but not feel it!
it hurts.
its painful.
i wish you were here.
yet i wish you werent.

2007-09-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

ahead of you.
there's someone waiting for you.

giving in, losing hope.
down with a temperature and having a bad sore throat.
but the weird thing is
the swelling is on one side of my throat only. :/
plus!
i can see my right-side under my cheek that area puff up.
hahas.
dint attend school today.
got to skip chinese test. :)
but the sad thing is i studied for it! :(
effort wasted.
but mean time i was happy.
caused, sly told me it was difficult.
*phew.
at least there's still a little laughter in my life now.
two stupid things happened today.
first thing.
i told my maid to boil barley for me.
for my throat.
she thought i was referring to Bali. =.=
she started telling me about her brother in Bali.
my sister and i couldnt stop laughing.
it was stupid.
second thing.
i was eating an sliced apple.
and i dont know why.
there was an broken piece of toothpick in it.
i was munching then.
i saw it in my apple.
the first reaction.
i though it was a worm.
i stoned.
started to panic.
and kept telling my sis there's a worm there's a worm!
after all the commotion.
we realised it was just a toothpick.
i felt so dumb.
hahas.
my day.
cheer up my dearest sis.
it isn't worth it.
what for torture yourself.
right?

day by day, we drift.
till the day we say good-bye.

2007-09-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

nothing.
there's nothing i want now.

i choose to run then to face it.

time passed so slowww in school today. :/
how i wished it had end quick.
exams are coming.
and, im not prepared!
shit.
im starting to feel really nervous and stress now.
plus there's lots of test up this week! :(
*whines.
chinese tomorrow.
off to study.
tata~

and.
YJ!
your NOT my buddy cause of your money okay.
(your also not rich, hahas. kidding.) :)
just stop saying that.

the distance is breaking my heart.
tearing me apart.

2007-09-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

to laugh or to cry?
dilemma.

i fear for what has yet to come.

just two more weeks till EOYs.
two weeks may sound long.
but its short.
time to mug mug mug.
school is forever boring.
nothing interesting or amusing happened today.
its a b-o-r-i-n-g post today. :/
mug hard everyone! :)

It's my insecurity.
It's not you it's me.
im sorry.
i fear home.
i wanna runaway.
far far away. :"(

2007-09-16T21:41:00.000+08:00

why?
i really wanted it.
and your taking it away from me now.

nothing feels better then to be dead.
blame who.
myself.
i asked for it.
but how was i to know.
i never knew this was coming.
im sorry.
though i know its to late to say now.
but what else can i say or do.
you cant even see this.
can you?
still.
im not letting go.
would you let me cry on you for the very last time?

2007-09-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

it hurts,
to want everything and nothing at the same time.

so near yet so far.

a week gone by just like that.
fast.
and the weekends are here.
mug mug mug.
is all i have installed for the weekends.
b-o-r-i-n-g. :/
my life is like an empty shell now.
no you. :(
all the best to all who're mugging hard now. :)

im just a passer-by.

2007-09-13T21:24:00.000+08:00

True?
its deceiving.

the pain gets deeper.

its the last day of dance today, till EOY is over.
talking of EOY.
its coming!
and its time to flip those books. :/
mugging days are here.
horror~
i understand.
i can never give what they gave and give.
lonely, is now part on my life.
shutting all doors.

2007-09-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

too bad? too good?
unknown.

it hurts more then you think.

today was...
okay.
school the same.
starting feel a lil pressure though.
EOY is coming!
and that means.
this year is gonna end pretty soon.
fast.
this year just passes so quickly.
that it felt like its been 2 separate yrs.
the first half of the year and the other half.

will be performing for the P6s tomorrow. :/
my cousin would be there!
but i dont really feel like performing.
no mood.
imagine you gotta smile your heart out.
deep down inside you feel like crying.
it sucks.
i'll probably slip or fall tomorrow.
*crossing fingers.
the floor sure is slippery.
Hope we'll do well.
and do dance club proud tomorrow.
with only the 9 of us.
if only everyone could perform.
that would be great.
I miss those days. :(

tomorrow will be a better day, i believe.

i wont fight.
i wont beg.
i wont hold on.
i wont cry.
i wont do anything.
i'll just accept it.

2007-08-29T20:07:00.000+08:00

the end?
i hope not. :(

im finally back.
after soooo looong.
my blog is finally alive once again. :)
but not for long i guess. :/

living in a new home now.
a new house, a new room.
meaning a start of a new life? :(
i hope not.
the worse has yet to come.

i miss everything around me. :(
i feel so caged now.
the life i use to had.
its gone.

i dint go to school today.
i bet school was quiet.
hahas.
i fell ill. :/
alright.
i shall admit.
im weak.
got caught under the heavy rain yesterday.
and im sick.
just like that.
and.
just to let you guys know.
my phone is being confiscated. :(
so if you message me.
i wont be able to reply.
not that i wanna dao you. :)

thats when i love you. :)
for who you are.

2007-08-08T14:34:00.000+08:00

Time.
its only a matter of time.
things will come to an change.
for the better?
or the worse?

im starting to dislike you!

i miss everything.
wishing for them to come back.
but.
its impossible.
and
i should know that.
once its lost.
i will never get it back. :(
excuse me.
do you know where's the lost and found?

the moving is killing.
everyone in the family.
even me is getting real pek chek over everything.
praying and hoping everything goes well. :X
here comes my headache againnn. :/
im dying.
shall not blog anymore.
byebye. :)
continue moving~
where you go~
i miss you bert. :(
遇到对的人是种缘分.
your the one. :)

2007-08-04T20:20:00.000+08:00

okay.
its hard to tell when its true.
what would you do?

am i important?

Welcome Back obs people! :)
*warm big hugs for your.
feel loved.

today was a busy busy day.
first time in my life ever had i felt so busy.
and it sure was SLEEPY day.
for the first time i fell asleep during tuition .
and i was being punished! :/
had to do 4 sums of the board.
phew~
i knew how to do it. :D
(proud of myself.)
hahas.
and tuition was super cold today. :/
almost froze to death.
my lips went pale.
i know why today’s tution was much colder the usual
cause the guy sitting next to me, dint come.
and he usually blocks the air-con.yeah.
my logical.
smart eh.
hahas.
it has been confirmed.
yes.
we are moving.
and im not really happy about it.
though im getting my own room. :/
im gonna miss my present home.
its been 9years since I lived here. :(
lots of memories held here.
never mind.
maybe a new home.
a new life?
its quite a last min thing.
we have to rush with the packing and so on.
but its okay.
ning promised to help!
hahas.
i’ll be busy packing for the next few days. :/
if that’s not you what you want.
don’t go for it.
i dint point a gun at you.
and forced you to do it.
i only REQUESTED.
and now your blaming me for it?
your being unreasonable.
yishun then.
im done.
alright.
i was supp to blog about this ytd.
but i dint blog ytd.
so im blogging about it today.
here it goes…
[main character- tupid.]
tupid a lovable cute bear.
with two ponys on it.
err, four i mean.
has a irresistible fur.
the moment you hold it, or just a touch.
you would feel like hugging it.
hahas.
tupid went for a walk in the park yesterday.
(pretty woman~ walking down the street~ ohhh, pretty woman~)
hahas.
and.
she bumped into someone.
it was a SHUAII GE!
his name was called…
PRATA!
(yum-yum)
hahas.
till now my dear tupid couldn’t get prata out of her mind.
uh-oh.
she’s probably fallen for prata.awww.love at first sight.
hahas.
I hope prata finds tupid. :X
tupid is hoping prata gets her number.
the end?
nope.
to be continued. :)
will tupid and prata meet again?

i know its wrong.
but not knowingly.
i have fallen for…
im so happy y0ur back! :D

2007-08-02T20:48:00.000+08:00

happy? sad?
i dont know.
im confuse now. :/

ducky gone emo. :/

ariel dint come again today.
she is sick. :((
get well my dear riel riel.
and...
your gift was SUPERB SWEET! :))
I LOVED IT.
thank you so much for it.
i'll keep it save.
hahas.

i just realised Mr Lee's birthday is a day before mine. :)
one day difference.
hahas.
and i was nice to design half his card after dance.
he better like it man.

time in school today passed real slow and quick.
and the day is finally over. :)
that means...
*DING DING DING!!!
round 4.
the last round is over!
they will be back tomorrow. :)
and im not happy!
(ning should know why.)
hahas.
alright.
im just kidding.

dont worry.
still the best. :))

wondering what you doing.

my beloved quel.
thanks for the banner. :))
sorry, i forgot to post this yesterday.

flowers by joyce who's currently at obs.
riel was the delivery man.
hahas.
thank you guys. :)

my birthday cake from my family. :)

last but not least.
i dint forget you guys okay.
just leaving you guys for the last.
leave the bad for the last.
hahas.
kidding kidding.
i received a cd in the afternoon today.
it was a pirated cd!
hahas.
okay.
im just being lame.
it was a special cd!
it was none other then the video most were talking about.
and i've watch it. :)
THANK YOU MY DEAR FRIENDS!
- KENGLING :)
-JASMINE :)
-EELENG :)
-SHERLENE. :)
for the video.
i really appreciated it.
it was a special gift to me.
I LOVE YOU GUYS. :)
though they wont be able to get to see this.
but im sure they will, when they get back.
and they will know how much i apprecaited it. :)
im officially 15 now!
no kid.
hahas.

2007-08-01T21:48:00.000+08:00

im a year older now.
and im a big girl.
big girls dont cry yar?

在想你.

bored without my friends and you. :/

alright its 1st August today.
and
it my birthday.
yes.
my birthday.
but why doesnt it feel like?
i dont know.
it just feels like some normal day.
but
i should be happy.
as im being blessed and loved by my dear friends.

even on my birthday they just wont stop quarreling.
whats my birthday for?
isnt it suppose to be a special day.
i want you. ))':
ariel dint come today so did alvin.
riel has fallen ill.
alvin isnt feeling too well.
guess my birthday did brought bad luck after all. :/
hope you guys get well soon!
take care.

Thank you session.
up first.

ning!
Thank you for everything! :))
alright,
i LOVE you even more now.
hahas.

daniel!
my newly found buddy.
kept me company for the past few days.
Thanks buddy. :)

my birthday cake for the year!
2007.
thank you guys for it. :)

From YOU!
the present which made me lost control. :/
hahas.
and i loved it.
Thank you! :))

from my best two buddies!
im really touch for all that your had done.
thank you so much buddies! :))

please dont be jealous.
its a three year gift from sly.
thanks bro! :)

a gift wrapped of three layer of newspaper from my brother, ac!
thank you. :)

i wont be late the next time.
cause i got a watch! :)
hahas.

Thank you guys! :)

tada!
its a pooh.
thank you ak. :)

moooo~
joyce who's at obs.
thank you! :)

*munch munch.
thank you emily for the cookies. :)

crunch!
ah foo!
thank you.
it was sweet. :)

biggest card i ever received. :D
again from my two best buddies!
thank you guys! :)
and thank you all who wrote in it.
(caught some posers!)
hahas.

Jared- thank you for the 15 subway cookies. :)

last but not least.
Thank you all guys for the wishing and accompany! :))

once again.
thank you all for your gifts. :))

alright,
end of my fifteen birthday.
5 packs of tissue used. :(

2007-07-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

i miss you guys!
quick come back. ):

我很想你你知道嗎.
Ding Ding!
alright.
day 2 is finally over.
Phew~
3 more days to go!
jia you jia you!!
the class is real small now.
it feels weird. :/
only me, ariel and daniel highs. :((
never mind.
*tells myself.
they are coming back!!!
my birthday is tomorrow.
im turning 15.
shouldn't i be feeling happy?
i dont know.
But it doesn't feel like it my birthday. )):
Lastly.
Thank you guys for the early wishing!
the champ- Selina! :)))
2nd runner up- ac! :))
3rd runner up- Alvin! :)
im sure there's more to come tml.
hahas.
why doesn't it feel the same anymore?
what happened?
one packet of tissue used. :((

2007-07-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

oh no.
how am i gonna survive the days without you. :((

孤單
most are leaving for obs tomorrow. :((
and our class is gonna be smaller.
i think my class has the most number of people going. :/
do take care everyone! :))
have fun.
and train to be stronger.
you go guys!
and you!
better come back in one piece.
Thank you guys for everything! :D
it all has been appreciated. :)
although i may not show it.
but
having you guys as my buddies is all i could ask for. :))
thank you!
it was great.
*two thumbs up.
quick come back alright.

2007-07-28T21:45:00.000+08:00

Sigh...

how now?
what do i do?

爱情不是一道选择题.
woke up early today.
alright wasnt that early after all.
as i was still LATE for pw.
hahas.
phew~
jasmine called me.
if she hadnt called i doubt i would had woke up.
thanks jasmine.
and i got caught under the rain on the way to school. :/
was wet.
soggy soggy feeling.
EEEWW~
presented pw and went home.
tuition-ed.
then went to the hospital.
as my popo has been admitted to the hospital. :((
i hope she gets well soon.
waited for 3+ hours outside the hospital.
still dint get to see her.
wasnt feeling too well.
so i headed home first.
hope she's alright. :/
Happy Birthday Emily! :)
Where can I run so I won't feel alone.

2007-07-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

is it a must?
only after losing.
then you'll start to treasure?

我想要说.
its weird.
i dont know if i should be happy or what.
but lately everyday seems to be my birthday. :/
people keep wishing me Happy Birthday.
but its not my birthday. :(
my birthday is on august the first.
*hint hint to those who dont know ah.
hahas.
but
if everyday would to be my birthday it wont be special already.
that is why birthdays are only held once a year. :))
and
im turning 15 soon!!
a year older.
(more matured, though im quite already.)
hahas.
hmmm,
still dont know if i should go for cip or project work tomorrow. :/
Happy Birthday Pamela!! :))
我只想要和你在一起.

a look alike sunflower(daisy) from TANIA!
THANK YOU TANIA! :D
i LOVED it.
it was really sweet of you. :)
*hugs.

2007-07-26T19:57:00.000+08:00

all i wanted was to have fun.
i dint mean anything.

im sorry. :(

都为了爱爱爱.

school was as usual.
B-O-R-I-N-G. :/
i thought i'll be okay if i went to school today.
guess i was wrong.
i started to feel really unwell during dance. :(
i hate the feeling to be sick.
though i get to skip school ah. hehe.
sorry to got you guys worried.
dont worry.
im alright.
HuiEn is strong. :D
okay, i guess you all are going eeee.
never mind.
i know myself can already.
hahas.

and i wanna say a
BIGGGG THANK YOU
to all who had shown me care & concern. :))
and others for their entertainment. :))
ee leng for her ice pact.
did helped my burning head cool down.
and not to forget, my dearest ning. :))
she walked me all the way home today.
lucky me.
must be envying me right. i know.
hahas.
some more right to my doorstep. :D
scare i faint ah.
hahas.

it was really sweet of her.
thank you!
i will always remember this day 26/07/07!
the very first time ning walked me home.
it was memorable.
I LOVE YOU NING! :))

thats all for today.
the end. :)

Happy Birthday Bert! :D

its easy to fall, but hard to get up.

2007-07-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

guess i'll never understand.
i may think i know everything.
in fact.
there was nothing i knew.
a dream i wished would never come true.
school was kinda quiet today.
as kl & ariel were not around. :(
they had been missed.

dance-
went late.
got to skipped 1/3 of ji ben gong. :))
hahas.
dance was as usual.
just that we finally need not stay back after ji ben gong.
cause monday is juniors day.
yeah~
spent time with my dearest ning. :)
and it was home.
thats all for today.
the end.
ning wasnt really herself today.
even i dont know what to do.
im at lost.
i feel so helpless. :((
wo men shou qian shou. wo men yi qi zou.
A love like yours is hard to find.

2007-07-21T19:40:00.000+08:00

what else more?

i cried a lot of tears, faced a lot fears to get this far.
but still

all this isnt enough.

aint strong.

dint really slept much ytd.
and due to lack of sleep.
now,
i got eye bags!!!
*EEEEE.
hahas.

this morning i received a weird call.
i was half awake then.
when i picked up the call .
the person on the phone kept claiming she was downstairs my house.
asked me to stop playing.
and
quick come down.
i went huh?
you know where i stay?
and i kept asking who're you?
then.

she answered

im your good friend.
i was like.
my good friend?
qian ning?
she doesnt sound like this.
and
she just went.
stop playing, quick come down.
after chatting with her on the phone for nearly 10mins.
i was abit sober.
you call the wrong number is it?
she claim NO!

but guess she realised she dialed the wrong no.
she say she will call me back.
until now.
she hasnt.

hahas!

dumb.

it was tuition after that.
i was feeling really sleepy.
plus the weather.
it was cold.
suitable for sleeping. :/
almost everyone was late for tuition today.
and.
finally
there's a GAL in my tuition.
whee~
but she came really late.
almost everyone forget to bring their calculators today.
so we were particularly snatching to use the calculators.
it was funny.
and.
*whispers.
i dint know how to switch off the calculator after using.
i was like figuring out.
yuan lai.
it will automatically switch off.
hahas.
i was so pai-seh.
but its not.
i swagu hor.
its the calculator old model.
hahas.

it was still drizzling after tuition.
strolled my way back.
what a day.
i learnt my lesson. :/
(today and yesterday)
NOT to response to attracting attention noises.
scary~
in need of something to rest on.
messy.
messy feeling i have.

2007-07-21T04:35:00.000+08:00

so near yet so far.
things has change.
for the better?
I guess.

its 4am+ now.
and im still up.
i must be an owl in my previous life,
hahas.
okay.
i just cant get to sleep.
:/
my heart has gone all numb.
my eyes feels like a chocked sink.

you must be a storyteller.
since you love telling stories.

and
just what exactly have i done to you.
you tell me!
one day.
my patience for you.
is bound to run out.

we cant have both.
if you dint know.
your presences does make a difference to me. :)

2007-07-19T01:52:00.000+08:00

all is kept in the heart.
left unsaid.
if only you could feel it.

its another sleepless night for me. :/
everyone is asleep now.
leaving me all awake. :(
lonely me.
but
it okay.
i still got emo. :)
im bored~
anyone still awake to talk to me?
guess not.
i shall talk to myself then. :D

2007-07-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

every smile i smile.
it hurts even deeper.

ernie plays soccer! :D

i played soccer during pe today!
for the first time.
though i dint know how to play at all.
but still.
i enjoyed myself.
sure laughed alot. :)
everyone was funny.
and entertaining.
today school wasnt that boring.
lots of laughter.
since i got to school in the morning.
i had been laughing and laughing. :)
and
kengling, jasmine and ee leng had fun scaring people.
i was one of the victim! :/
(as usual)
so bad of them ah.
hahas.
but still.
they were funny.
sure made me laughed. :)
thanks guys!
today is a happy day for me.
i received a SUNFLOWER from Janice & Joyce. :)
it was really sweet of them.
thank you!
i really loved it.
and.
i LOVE you guys. :)
thats all for today.
end of my day. :)
days without ning. :(
i miss ning~
a picture of my sunflower. :D
(showing off)

words on the stem.
it dint came along.
it was written by jasmine.
she killed the flower.
hahas.

i maybe neglecting you for now.
im sorry. :(
but.
i just dont know how to face you.

2007-07-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

just what do you want?
accuse accuse.
is that all you know?

ernie gone dead.
just when everything doesnt seem to be going right.
you feel like its the end.

i wasnt myself today. :(
sorry guys.
lessons were per normal.

but
there was a slight change in geography lesson.
miss chuang told us stories about her!
hahas.
it was funny.
miss chuang sure can be real funny at times.
got home straight.
and stuck my ass to the bed the whole day. :D
shiok!
sleep is when you feel free from all problems.
thats all for today.

a whole new day tomorrow. :)
every little actions from you.
just touches me.
and.
i must
all has been appreciated.
thank you. :)

2007-07-17T00:36:00.000+08:00

here comes emo.

things always tend to turn out bad.
when everything seems to be going well. :(
wth.

i wish i could just sleep and find myself in a another world when i get up.
a land of dead.
a wish hoping to come true.

2007-07-16T20:21:00.000+08:00

cut the act.
when will all this come to an end?

shout all your problems out.
and you'll feel better. :)

i miss ning! :(
she's at tuition now.
waiting for her to get back.

today.
my partner was kinda high.
thats not really herself.

but still

she sure entertained me!
thanks partner! :)

and

lesson was the same.

dance-
went late.
(thought can skip some ji ben gong.)
but when we got there.
they just started. =.=
in the end.
li laoshi had a big talk again.
sooooo.
we only did half of the ji ben gong.
and....
we are going for seoul garden soonnn!
YESSSS!
hahas.
i've been waiting for it. :D
can eat!
yum-yum.
imagine all the food we are gonna have.
yeah!
hope it wont be canceled in the end.
*crossing fingers.

HIPHIP!
i ate a doughnut today. :D
its been ages i ate one.
yum-yum.
tasty.
and
thanks to kok chun for the doughnut. :)

oya!

i have a announcement to make. :)
listen up.
im angry!
hahas.
okay.
actually not really.
cause i knew it was you guys!
i knew the culprits was none other then.
JASMINE AND KENGLING.
they were the ones who un-tied my shoelaces!
and i dint know how to tie them back. :(
so.
i was like a freak.
with weird shoelaces on my shoes. :'(

im really worried alright. :(
here are some photos taken during yesterday night's dinner. :)
tadaaa~

on the way there! :D

smile. :))

bu kui mother like daughter ah.
hahas.

awww~
perfect couple.
my daddy and mummy. :)

YEAH!

CHEESE! :D
(oh my gosh. we look so retarded. hahas.)

opps.
thats just my sis and cousin.

HAPPY 85th BIRTHDAY TO MY POPO! :D

make a wish.
and.
blow the candles away~

yeah.
and
its cutting of cake.
finally.
everyone is waiting to eat it! :D
*whispers.
(esp me. hahas.)

this is only 1/5 of the whole family.

its MINE! :)

tired~

the end. :)

2007-07-15T15:39:00.000+08:00

i got a good friend!

and

i love her for who she is. :)

this is my very good friend!
Tan Qian Ning! :D

hahas.

she maybe so idiot at times.
but.
who cares.
i still
LOVE HER! :)

there's tuition later. :/

sian.
its SUPER boring.
the teach just talks and talks and talks.
while i just stone there.
after tuition we'll be going for family dinner!
my mummy's mother birthday dinner.
sure got bao yu, yu chi. :)
yum-yum.
hahas.
okay.
thats all for today.
wont be around later on.
dont miss me. :D
hahas.

post for today.
its all about.
how much i love my good friend, NING! :)
ning.
see this!
feel honoured.
hahas.
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR! :)

your as important to me . :)

2007-07-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

second time posting today. :)
im hardworking.

hahas.

MORE PHOTOS TAKEN DURING ARTS NITE! :D

TADAAA~

do~
re~

mi~
fa~

yo - yo - yo!
GMSS Dance Club very own dudes.
hahas.

America's next top model?
nope.
GMSS Dance Club next top model.

bu shuang!
okay.
expect for quel.
she smiling.

smile. :)

cheese!
and.
boo!

pause.

li laoshi and the threes. :)

the threes! :)

we always take standing.
for once.
is lying. :)

my buddy!
*starts singing.
isnt she lovely~
isnt she wonderful~
alright.
isnt she cute!
hahas.

yum-yum.
filling our stomach just before our performance.

potential mums.
hahas.

who says dancers aint macho.

our very own dance club Hi-5 gang.

first member up.
0!
daphie~
always giving the stupid face when you say smth lame.
hahas.

next~
1!
quel~
loves to laugh at her own jokes.
hahas.

tadaaa.
2!
ning~
speciality-
good at making stupid faces!
hahas.

yeahhh~
3!
its me~
im...
CRAZY!
hahas.

hehe~
4!
eeching~
real entertainer.
never fail to make us laugh. :)

last but not least!
5!
xiaomei~
she may seem quiet.
but she sure knows how to talk.
hahas.

2007-07-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

Like they cared.

they never cared.

but they only act like they cared. :(

ernie gone emo.

tagboard is uppp! :D
went for maths tuition today. :/

once again.
i was the only gal. :(

sometimes i really wonder if my tuition has gals.
sat at my usual corner.
loner.
today we were made to do alot of sums.
almost died.
i was bored to death.
kept shaking my leg.
hahas.

in order to stay awake. :/

and i realised i shacked too hard.
that the table was moving!

(maybe i can create earthquake. :D)

hahas.

and
the guy sharing the table with me pencils' fell onto the ground.

hahas.

i was so pai-seh. :/
tuition ended late again.
he never seem to let us off on time.
not even once man.

lady luck isnt on my side today. :/

while

i was walking home.
there was this wet patch.

guessed i missed it.
as i happened to stepped on it.
and.

just nice i was wearing the slippers with NO-GRIP today.
i slip and almost fell.
phew~

i hold onto to the pole near me.
i fell half way only. :D

hahas.

wasnt that pai-seh.

thats all for today. :)

the end~

more arts nite pictures coming up~

everything around us may had change.
things between us may had change too.
but.
there's one thing still kept the same.
my feelings for you.

2007-07-14T10:30:00.000+08:00

whats happening?
i wish i knew.

i feel a distance from everyone now. :(

2007-07-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

its okay.

whats not meant to be yours.
will never be yours.

its friday today.
yeah~

means the weekends are here.
no school!

there's nothing much to blog about today.
my life seem to lost its excitement.
got home straight after school today.
ate my lunch.
and it was KUNNING.
slept for almost the whole day.
guess i wont be sleeping much tonight. :/

thats all for today.
do check out our share blog for more pics taken during arts nite! :)

love or friends?

2007-07-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

a few out of hundreds pics we took during arts nite. :))

the first night.
29/06/07

si ge da mei nu posing to the camera!:D
hahas.

oh my gosh!
*faint.
i caught ning having an affair. :(

happy happy. :)

members of the gu niang club!
hahas.

thank you guys for the flowers! :D
really LOVED it.
*whispers.
(i felt like a ming xing that day. hahas.)

photos taken on the rehearsal day.
28/06/07

say cheese!
(the yellow bananas.)

woah!
scary~
we look fierce alright.
hahas.

our zhou laoshi is the man alright! :D

this photo was showed during the arts nite slight show!
and.
credits to me!
(taken by ME.)
hahas.

2007-07-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

Smile Smile. :D

i dont know why.
i just feel so happy.
hahas.

its been loooong since i last blog.
and.

here i am.

im back to blog! :)

school was as usual.
same-same.
there was fun of cause.
but still.
boring :/
but sure had fun after school.
with none other then my dearest ning. :)
went to ning's place after school.

we were pretty high today.
dont know why.
probably i was too happy.
hahas.
it was a fun day. :D
we played and sung alooot!
we opened a mini " KTV"today.
we sung to almost every song that played on ning's laptop.

and...
ning entertained me today! :))
but.
*whispers.
she was such a idiot today.
hahas.
kidding.
she was really funny.
thank you ning.
if you werent there for me i wouldnt know what to do.

i just love the time spent with her. :)
it was great.
this was how i spent my day.

tomorrow is gonna be a whole new day again.

okay.

actually i intended to upload some pics during arts nite.
but there's a problem with the loading.
so i couldnt.
next time. :)
it hurts so badly.
that i could hardly even breathe.

mending wont help now. :(

2007-06-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

it's all a lie!

bed of roses?

i was blinded then

it was just bed of throns.
*in tears. :'(

im back!

its been a while since i last blogged.

its back to school. :/

and i cant believe it.

arts nite is actually this coming friday.

fast man.

went for rehearsal today.

it was totally BOOORING.

*cut short.

not looking forward to this year's arts nite.

man.

it sucks. :/

To: Ning!

okay.

though i dont really know what happened to you lately.

but.

i really do hope everything is alright.

and.

you better get back to your normal self alright.

before i go MIA again. :D

hahas.

take care my dear.

no matter what.

you still got MEEE!

*whispers.

(LOVING YOU!) :)

i have been missing...

missing you! :)

2007-06-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

Your being ridiculous im telling you!

your original. :)

always O-R-I-G-I-N-A-L to meee. :D

so fret not.

maybe all thats happening now.

is my fault.

or.

it was my fault after all.

and.

im sorry that my presences brought unhappiness to you guys.

please do accept my apology.

im getting emo. :(

my feelings for you will always be kept the same. :)

2007-06-17T15:29:00.000+08:00

Happy Father's Day!

it falls on every third Sunday of the month of June.

its a day we show our appreciation to our dads! :)
the day we thank our dads for every single thing they had done for us.
(even if its their scoldings. hahas.)

Sometimes it's not the big stuff that makes a man a wonderful dad,
it's the little everyday things.
like being there to tie a shoe or play catch or just listen for a while.
All those little things really make a difference.
And every one of them holds so much love.
For every little thing.
Love your daddy! :)

Hope you guys enjoyed your day with your dads. :)

I LOVE MY DAD! :)

mummy.

it was you who taught me how important father day is.

2007-06-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

I saw a rainbow!

it reminded me of her.
if she was still around.

its quite a long post again today. :)

i went for my very first MATHS tuition today.
it was supp to be a group tuition.
(hoping for shuai ges. hahas.)

but group tuition was only on saturdays.

(so i dint get to see if there was any.)

i couldnt make it this sat.

so i was on my own today.

did my own stuff.

and the teach taught.

he's...

not bad?

i dont know.

and.

the journey to tuition was tough. :/

once again.

i LOST my way.

dont know why.

i always end up at some ulu ulu place.

but.

not the place.

im looking for.

i seriously have no sense of directions. :(

the tuition place was at block 5.

when i came out of the mrt.

block 2 was the first i saw.

so i knew 5 was some how to be near by.

i walked behind.

looking out for the big 5.

ended up at 9.

wth.

then i arrived at this sitting corner.

(i guess.)

it was full with ah-peks man.

they seemed to be really free though.

when they saw me

all eyes were on me.

they started to stare at me.

like they knew me or something.

the stares made me felt seriously uncomfortable.

(in my heart i went SHIT!)

and quickly got out of there.

freaky.

i guess even God wasnt on my side today.

the weather was super HOOOT today.

and i was under it nearly for 45mins. :/

i felt like i was melting.

the heat kills.

after all the hard walks and rounds i made.

i finally arrived!

thank God!

had tuition.

then left.

my head felt like it was splitting then.

had a serious baddd headache.

the journey home wasnt that good either.

it seemed like never ending.

as i was walking.

*PAIN!

i banged against one of the poles along the path.

i was so embarrssed.

the people around me.

were all staring.

(in my heart i went. SHIT SHIT!)

quickly walked away.

and pretend it was not me who banged against the pole.

act like it was some one else.

pretending i dint know where the sound came from.

and looked around.

(act blur.)

hahas.

dumb.

got home and rest. :)

in the evening.

i saw a rainbow!!

did you guys see it?!!

it was simply BEAUTIFUL!

and surprisingly

my headache got much better after looking at it.

beats me.

but.

i was really happy to finally see one again.

after so looong.

if it wouldnt had been you.

i wouldnt had saw it.

thank you! :)

later in the evening.

guess what.

i received a Japanese call!

hahas.

actually...

it was a prank call.

by none other jasmine.

hahas.

and

i almost fell for it.

hope you guys enjoyed yourself today. :)

the rainbow made my day.

so did you! :)

i was really happy to see you. :)

2007-06-14T22:24:00.000+08:00

ENOUGH!

what have i done to be treated like this.

tell me.
its been a while i blogged a looong post.

so, be prepared.

this post is gonna be looong. :)

was late for dance again today.

but when i got there.

they were still mopping the floor. :/

(i still thought i could skip some ji ben gong. hehe.)

we sat in the canteen while the room was being mopped.

but then mrs kaan called us in to help.

so we went in.

and they were still mopping.

nothing much to help.

so the usuals found a corner and sat there.

we started chatting.

buuut.

soon.

i was called. :(

daphie was called after me. :)

at least got her to pei.

we were ordered to do cu gong.

we had to carry the bucket of dirty water + dirty rags down.

and get the rags rinse + the water change.

OH MY GOSH!

the water was EEEEE!

when me and daphie got to the sink.

we STONED for a quite while.

knowing we were left with no choice but to do it.

so we put our hands in.

and got everything done quick.

after all.
it wasnt that bad.
we had fun though.
daphie and i dint know how to switch on the tap.
so we anyhow fiddled with it.
and.
*splash!
the water blast out of the tap.
(we were wet)
scared us.
and.
we started laughing.
hahas.

the worst part was.

there was NO SOAP to wash our hands.

wth.

but.

just when we were about to lose hope...

HIP!

there was this canteen auntie doing her dishes at the opp sink.

and she had dish detergent with her!

but.

we were not allowed to take. :(

so we secretly took it. (behind her back.) :D

hahas.

okay.

i know it was bad of us.

but.
we were left with NO CHOICE.

we open a mini dance KTV today! :))

it was a singing day.

we did ji ben gong with the songs we listen to.

cool!

as we kicked, stretched and jumped.

we were singing.

hahas.

a good way of training stamina. :)

and.

i must say.

THANK YOU NING for providing the songs! :)

and

the rest of the day.

was FULL of dancing.

seniors came back in the afternoon.

the more we couldnt slack.

Hey my dear quel.

hope your feeling better.

miss the you. :(

quick come back alright?

and play with me! :D

oya!

and

i just found out that.

JOYCE LIKES GERALDINE TOO!!!

same as me and ning! :))

HIP HIP!

whenever Geraldine song was being played.

the three of us got HIGH!

(sorry guys, if we got a little over ah. hahas.)

now.

there's one more person to high with us. :)

and

we all agreed that Geraldine is shuai!

i guess its a blue moon today.
cause.
ning was highhh!
hahas.
and
i hope everyone had fun by our entertainment today. :)

in my eyes

you will always be the one. :)

2007-06-09T21:04:00.000+08:00

Lame la.

it was always on mine mind. :(
i dont know why.
went supporting again today.
hope you guys were happy we came.
spent the day with my dearest ning today. :)
every min spent with her is just so memorable.
even if its just stone-ing.
i dont know why.
but things has been real weird for me and ning lately.
whatever we says tends to came true. (on purpose things wont come true)
example.
i just happened to start talking about kl they all today.
and guess what.
the very next min we MET THEM!
OHMYGOSH!
so qiao.
scary man. (not saying you guys scary ah.)
and.
they were shocked to see us.
all dint know how to react then.

me and ning werent really ourselves today.
we crossed the road without looking!
for the first time.
it was red man then.
and we just crossed.
oh my gosh!
you guys almost couldnt see us again.
hahas.
but heng.
not much cars were turning then.
*phew.

went ikea today!

and me and ning found this bed.

found it real nice.

and we intend to change it to a sofa.

its our dream sofa! :)

do vist our share blog for pics. :)

Hey guys!
All the best tml!

its the last match.

jiayou! :))

win win win!
whee~
things will be back to normal.

im getting back the old us.

no matter what.

i wont let us just end just like this.

2007-06-08T22:08:00.000+08:00

You dont need a knife to kill me.
your words alone kills me.

it made me cried.

weird things are happening lately. :/

went to support our friends today.

as they were having match.

it was held at padang.

Hey guys,

though the results werent that good.

i hope you guys wont give up yet.

as there still tml and sunday.
you go guys!
jiayou!! :)

those words might be nothing to your.

but to us.

every word your say.

just meant so much.

that if even its just a few words your had say then.

it was already enough to hurt us badly.

im sorry if we had affected your later on.

we dint mean to.

but the pain we were feeling was just unbearable.

i want you to know this.

im not angry with you.

though you say it seems like im.

but.

im not.

i was feeling sad and disappointed instead.

i was in tears at that point of time.

even now.

and,

i'll never be mad at you.

though at times i might say.

but.

im my heart.

anger does not exist.

and i can never bring myself to be mad at you.

dont blame Snuffy alright.

it wasnt Snuffy fault.

and i really dont wish its the end for your. :(

forgive Snuffy alright?

im sure Snuffy wont do it again. :)

All the best sofballers for tomorrow's match! :)

Do vist me and ning's shared blog . :)

http://en-and-ning.blogspot.com/
i hope its not the end for us.

im not willing to let go yet.

2007-06-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

Everything seems upside down.

im currently at ning's place! :)

woke up late today.

and knew i was gonna be late for dance.

dint really bothered.

just took my own sweet time.

as i dint felt like going.

but dint had a choice. :/

called ning to remind her to bring some stuff.

ended up chatting over the phone.

hahas.

as a result.

we were both late.

and.

we met on the bus!

zhen you yuan ah.

and.

made our way to school together. :)

Dance ended early though.

but i couldn't go yet.

had to help liping with some arts nite stuff.

ning stayed back and pei-ed me.

she helped out too.

how sweet of her. :)

thank you dear. :)

ning i know your reading now.

*whispers.

(dont smile to yourself.)

hahas.

left school really late.

it was like coming 3pm.

and we left for our 'mission'!

there was lots of walking done.

we walked till our feet hurts. :(

it was tiring.

half of the mission was finally accomplished!

yeah!

and we made our way back.

so here i am now at ning's place blogging.

while she's having her dinner.

yum-yum!

and before i forget.

wishing all softballers the very best for tomorrow's src!
jiayou guys!
do your best! :))

off to my half completed mission.

byeee! :)

2007-06-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

When love comes along.

2007-05-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

Imagination going WILD.

it was a booooring day. :/

i got nagged the whole day.
nagging is part of my everyday life.

I hope you know.

That this has nothing to do with you.

It's personal, Myself and I.

2007-05-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

Cut all the pain away.

old feelings can be brought back.
maybe its really true.

woke up today.
wasnt feeling too well.

was having a bad headache.

felt really nausea.

and.
i was aching everywhere.

so i decided to stay home the whole day.

dint feel like moving due to the aches and all.

so all i did today beside eating and to the toilet.

i stoned in bed. :/

it was a boring day.

Hoping everything goes well tomorrow. :(

Ning, i hope your feeling better already.

do take care alright.

worries me.

and.

dont worry.

i'll help you gain back that 2kg if you really want to.

hahas.

wo hui yang ni de bai bai pang pang.

(opps.)

i love you. :)

oya,

for those who dont know.

as there's no tag board.

you are allowed to leave comments.

just click on the left hand side below the time.

which says. eg. 0 are hiding.

do leave your comments.

thank you. :)
anyway.

you guys are real childish.

grow up man.

and.

thanks for getting on my nerves today.

you mean so much to me.

that i cant afford to lose you.

2007-05-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

its my second time posting today. :)

Cool!

Singapore is gonna have its very own Ferris wheel.

the Ferris wheel is coming soon!
HIP HIP!

here's an article on it i found today while reading the papers.
( see, i do read papers okay. hahas.)

gosh.
but its costly alright.
its like $29.50 each per person.
its gonna be fun sitting on it.
especially on valentine's day. :)
but.
its just too costly.

ning!
guess we should start saving now. :/
hahas.

Looking forward to it! :)

2007-05-26T14:52:00.000+08:00

Ning made me do this! :(

According to the rules of the meme:

People who are tagged should write a blog post of 7 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly.

In the end, you need to choose 7 people to be tagged and list their names.

Don’t forget to leave a comment that says ‘you are tagged’ in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

7 weird things about me. :)

1. when im bored. i tend to play with all my soft toys on my bed. (including dressing them up) :)

2. i loved to create a storyline for ernie and bert at ning's place. :)

3. i play imaginary games. eg. softball, basketball, dog and done. :)

4. when im sad i tend to act happy. :)

5. i turn to my toy Sylvester most of the times, when im down. :)

6. i just love to eat. even when im not hungry. (i just feeling like chewing) :)

7. when im watching tv alone, i tend to give comments to myself. :)

im a real weirdo if you guys dont know.

and.

anyone is allowed to do this test.

all are WELCOME! :)

The End!

2007-05-25T16:09:00.000+08:00

Just what am i thinking.

beats me.

dint go to school today.

as.

my whole body is aching now. :/

especially my leg muscles.

im dying of pain. :'(

i dont ask for much.

all i want is love.