blinded.

Monday, April 30, 2007

it sucks.

This is destiny.
its time for me to grow up.
i should learn to accept things the way they are.
and stop whining like a baby about every single damn thing.

Riel!
cheery uppp alright!
miss your crapping. :(
i want the riel i know back!
come back come back~
im missing you.
everything is gonna be okay.
cause...
there's US!
whee~
LOVE YOU GAL. :)

Garfield!
thanks alot for cheering me the whole day. :))
i know you tried your best.
and.
im alright.
thank you for the baby gummies!

and.

Those who are sick.
Quick get well alright!
your presence is being missed. :(
Take Care! :)

bidding goodbye.
im losing myself.

i feel terrible. :(

the end.
10:11 PM

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Endless pain.
it pains.
it hurts.
and..
it KILLS.

there's something i must say ! :)
Hope its not too late.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS! :)))

- LaoGong. (Lai)
- Garfield. (jasmine)
- Ah pek. (Ak)
- Riel. (ariel)
- Partner. (janice)
- Ang. (Ee Leng)

and.
i mean it.
i really do. :)

Guys see this!
im confessing my love to your man.
better be touch.
hahas.

They were great friends.
Friends i will NEVER EVER forget.
They were the ones who let joy came into my life.

and

Im Sorry guys! *bows.
i felt sooo touch and bad the other day.
that i couldn't help it.
dint mean to.
sorry.

but..
What your did.
really did touched me. :)
caught me speechless.

I know no matter how many THANK-YOUS i say.
its NEVER NEVER enough.
but.
my grate fullness shall be kept my heart. :)
i will always remember what your did for me.
THANK YOU GUYS! :)))

and.
im really glad i met your! :)
without your.
i'll be at lost. :/

Love You Guys! :DD

im so useless. :(
there's nothing i could do.
but.
just stand there.
see-ing you in pain.
it pains me too. :(
if only i could ease the pain in you.
if only i could..

if i would to ever leave one day.
promise me you wont be upset.
cause i know things would be better out like this.
trust me. :)

Sylvester says Take Care! :)

the end.
1:52 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took

You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed
I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-f******-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Well.
Cheer up my friend!
everything just comes and goes.
hopefully it does go. :)
stay strong.
dont be like me.
or.
you will hate your life.

the end.
10:59 PM

i miss everything.

i have a feeling im gonna lose it this time.
i dont wish to.
im feeling so afraid i would lose it.
and.
i dont wish to.
i really dont.
but...
maybe its meant to be.
its all over. :(

ran 2.4 today.
i was like dying.
i gek my cough throughout the whole run. :'(
it was torturing.
i never felt so terrible running before. :(
i so wanted to give up.

but.

Thanks to all those who cheered for me.
made me continued. :)
THANK YOU ALL!
without your support i doubt i could finish the run.

nothing much to blog about today.

im feeling so restless.
i just feel like stoning now.

im feeling tired now.
hoping it all comes to an end.
everyday just seems so hard to get by.
its killing me.
Thanks Dude for the baby gummies! :)

the end.
9:53 PM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

Somethings last.
Somethings always last.
and.
we would last as looong possible. :)

Dance was all on LECTURING today.
*sian face.
i was excited to see zhou laoshi!
couldnt wait to hear what he has to say.

FINALLY it was zhou laoshi's turn to speak after li laoshi looong talk.
i got real excited man.
hahas.
dumb.
but.

he got real emo.
after the first sentence he say.
you could see tears in his eyes.
were they tears of joy?
NOPE.
they werent.
its was disappointment.

see-ing him teared.
made me cried. :'(
i couldnt control.
tears just kept rolling down my face.
i felt real sad and sorry.
dint know what to do.

Hope his mood would be much more better on monday. :)
He was an GREAT INSTRUCTOR.
and.
im sure.
We All Dancers Love Him! :)
hahas.

Li Laoshi was a great teach too.
though she's mean at times.
hahas.
but.
she really helped us ALOT.
and.
im thankful.

SYF was an memorable experience to all of us! :)
through it.
we all drawn closer then before.
the time we had was FUN.
the crapping the playing.
was just so unforgettable.
Thank You Guys!
im so gonna miss those days.

My dear ning
please dont be too stressed up over your studies.
okay?
i'll be right here.
cheering you. :)
loving you. :)
entertaining you. :)
I Love You My Dear!
sorry for being so quiet today.

Guys, sorry for the quiet bus ride.
dint feel like talking much.
im sorry.

Oh My!

i gotta run my 2.4 tml.
I DONT WANT TO.
i hate running.
im too lazy to run.
but.

NO choice.
wish me luck.
hope i can complete the run with my miserable cough.
hahas.

Stay Happy Garfield! :D

Dude, Thanks for the Gummies! :)
it was YUMMY!

Let's run away
Name a place
Where the air tastes like rain
And the sun shines like Sunday morning
You bring your laugh and I'll bring my sense of humor
And we can the waste days
One week after another

the end.
8:32 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me.

i think i suck in blogging.
its like my second time typing.
lost the previous.
gosh.
im so piss.

OH MY GOSH!

we did it we did it!
whoo-hoo~

we managed to brought back a gold award for the school.
*phew.
the standard dint drop.
though we dint managed to achieve our goal.
which is Gold With Honor.
but.
I guess.
i shall just be contented with what we had achieve. :)
we did our best.

Getting gold was quite a shock to us too.
we SERIOUSLY dint expect it.

This shows miracles do happen. :)
Thank God!

Gosh.
im so excited for tml.
cant wait to hear what zhou laoshi has to say. :)
whee~

People please do clap LOUD LOUD for us tml. :)
THANK YOU!!!

went teoheng for a celebration after dance.
i was zi-highing.
gosh.
thinking about it.
i felt so DUMB.
hahas.
we sung all hearts out.

and.
i sung QIAN LI ZHI WAI!
hahas.

and.
oh my.
i realised i seriously have NO talent for singing man.
hahas.

THANK YOU EVERYONE!

A BIGGY BIGGY BIG
THANK YOU
TO ALL WHO HAD WISHED AND CONGRATED ME!! :)

im so touched. :')
tears of joy.
hahas.

I LOVE YOU ALL! :D

Oh no!
havent study for physic test yet.
CHAM.
guess i shall end here now.

A HAPPY DAY TO ALL DANCERS! :)

im sorry.
i dint mean it.
but.ts all too late now. :(

the end.
11:12 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

It seems like yesterday that my world fell from the sky
It seems like yesterday I didnt know how hard I could cry
It feels like tomorrow I may not get by
But I will try
I will try wipe the tears from my eyes
cause i know you'll be there for me. :)

Its all over!

months of hard work.
was over within
6 mins.
we screwed up everything. :'(

sad and disappointed im.
but.
there's no use.
like everyone says.
its all over.

i admit.
im not that strong after all.
i cried the moment we gathered.
dumb.
made the rest cried.
im sorry.

i felt like i let zhou laoshi down. :(
he must be really upset.
that he dint even come to find us.
sigh.
the competition was tough.
other schools were GREAT.

now.
is to wait for tomorrow.
HOPING FOR A GOLD.
oh Lord,please show miracles do happened.
*praying hard.

Bert.
i'll be right here if you need me. :)
and.
please be there for me.
hah.

its time for...
THANK YOU SESSION!

Thank you all for all your support during the past few months! :)

Thank you ly, ak and yj for coming down so early in the morning! :)
followed by the rest.
THANK YOU!

Thank you those for your good luck messages! :)
it was really sweet of your.

Thank you jasmine for your lucky charm! :)

Thank you yj for the puppet! :)

Thank you dude for your tissue! :)

Thank you to the teachers who helped us with the make up.

and.

A VERY VERY BIGGY BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE!
THANKS FOR CHEERING ME UP TOO. :)

THANK YOU!

Yeoyeo all the very best for tomorrow.
dont jin zhang.
stay cool. :)

Jiajia take care!
hope your leg would be well in no time.
and.
you can play with me.
whee~

Cheer up my fellow peers! :)

im sorry.
thats all i can say now.
its all too late.
too late.

the end.
10:58 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

So if you call my name
You know my heart you claim
I'll be right here
By your side
Through thickness and through thin
You know my love you win
I'll be right here
By your side :)

I love yesterday.
whee~
hahas. :D
see my teeth.
shows how happy im.
hahas.

Oh my gosh oh my gosh!
*panics.
i cant believe it.
syf is coming!!!
2 more days.
and
tomorrow is our last practice. :(
Hope we get a gold back.
wish us luck ppl.
and.
pray hard for me
i wont trip over my looong pants on the actual day.
hahas.

Oya.
i met a new friend!
Everyone meet bert.

He is caring and SWEET!
im glad to have bert in my life.
bert. see this!
I LOVE YOU~
be touch okay.
hahas.
Bert is charming i can say.
though he has weird hobbies.
such as.
collecting bottle caps and paper clips.
weird huh.
hahas.
but.
its hard to resist from Bert's charm.
oh my gosh.
i sound so sick.
hahas.

oh no~
im having Chinese tuition later.
sian.
new teacher.
hoping she's nice and interesting.
yeah.

and.
i wont be home early today.
its my ahma's bday today.
and.
there's family dinner.
BORING.
miss me ppl.
hahas.

so long!

i have fallen deeper.

the end.
3:23 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007

pain pain pain.
pain is what i feel.
bed with roses?
or.
bed with just throns.
the roses are dead im telling you.
im tired.

there's quite alot to blog today. hahas.
so.
please have xin li zn bei. :)

okay.
here it goes...

dance was bad. bad bad bad.
obviously.
what she say today was referring to me. its like so OBVIOUS. then just say my name out. dont need to beat around the bush yarrs.
i seriously dint know it would be such a problem to your.
sigh.
forget it.

okay.
i totally embarrassed myself today. so pai seh!!! *hiding face.
it was during dance practice. we were dancing our last dance for the day.
everyone was getting ready to run out to the 'stage'
we were ready to run out to our starting position.
we stand in a line. as usual.
i pulled my pants up. taking precaution in case i trip over it. as it was looong.
but. guess what.

one by one run. one after anth. my turn! i ran a few steps.
*POM!
i tripped over my looong pants.
and. landed almost all flat on the floor.
hit my head!
*pain pain! :(
but. i did came out with quite a sexy pose lo.
i fell flat on my body leaving my legs and hands dangling in the air.
ning actually tht i was unconscious. =.= hahas.
caused.
i stoned there.
laid at that sexy position for quite a while. as i was too shocked to move. and.
i was waiting for someone to come to my rescue. :(
where was everyone?
to avoid from further embarrassment i started laughing when i got up.
dumb.
laughed with everyone.
even my instructor was laughing at me.
it must had really been stupid.
hahas.
it was unforgettable.
im afraid to lose you.
and.
i dont wish to.
but.
i might have to.
though i really cant bare to.

Thank you all for cheering me today! :)

Cheer up dude! :)

the end.
9:03 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

HELLO EVERYONE!

meet HuiEn that is ME!
okay. ppl dont stone. hahas.
and.
im telling you.
your lucky if you dont know me. :)
As.
im a quite a useless person.
a bad friend, who only knows how to say hurting stuff.
im selfish.
stingy.
unreasonable.
stupid.
insensitive.
okay.
im STUCK now.
hmmm.
simple.
im bad in all ways you can think of.
yeah.
The End!

I lost the old me.
im trying to get it back. but. im afraid im about to lose it.
sigh.
my presence just brings unhappiness to all.
im sorry.

Ning! its totally not your fault today. so stop blaming yourself okay.
if its your fault. im at fault too.
CHEER UP MY DEAR!
BE HAPPY.
I LOVE YOU~ :)

staying strong.

Happy Birthday Daphne!!!

the end.
10:22 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Tu Amor

Mi amor I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will di best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you now
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right trought to your heart
Here's the place to start

[Coro]
Tu amor, I will always be
Tu amor, means the world to me
Estarás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor.

Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I'll feel for all time
How to make you see
How to let you now I need you
With words you understand
Words that get through to your soul
Words that will let you now

[Coro]
Tu amor, I will always be
Tu amor, means the world to me
Estarás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor.

You're the one that I need in my arms
Believe me these words
I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me

[Coro]
Tu amor, I will always be
Tu amor, means the world to me
Estarás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor.

A song placed right close to my heart. :)

sweet moments just dint lasted long. its back to bitterness.
it sucks. :(
but. never mind. at least everything was so memorable. that i'll never forget.
thank you for everything!

im not myself lately in school. im sorry everyone. those who i had dao. im sorry. i dint mean to. hope i'll be back to myself soon. but. would things be diff? i doubt so. sigh. everything would still be the same.

Honestly.
I HATE EVERYTHING!
I HAD ENOUGH.
i dint wish for all these. im sorry. its all my fault. besides sorry. there's nothing else i could say.
i feel terrible. argh!

Hmmm.
Cheer up everyone! dont know why. everyone is so upset lately. probably its the sad season. :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEOYEO!!!

I like talking to dude. :)

the end.
9:16 PM

Saturday, April 7, 2007

Keep Holding on.

you're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side, you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
there's no place to go
you know i won't give in
no i won't give in

keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
'cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

so far away
i wish you were here
before it's too late, this could all disappear
before the doors close
and it comes to an end
with you by my side i will fight and defend
i'll fight and defend
yeah, yeah

keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

hear me when i say, when i say i believe
nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

la da da da
la da da da
la da da da da da da da da

keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

keep holding on
keep holding on

there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

A song i'll never forget.
Lately.
Life for everyone is getting bad. bad bad bad. whats happening. what happen to the happy times we used to have. sigh.

im gonna have a break down.
save me!
someone please!

the end.
10:34 PM

hello hello~!

i'm here to blog for huien

that pig

haha

she's next to me now

BUT

not talking to me~

))):

BAD HUIEN

she's laughing now

lols

okay okay

I LOVE HER

(((:

dont get goosebumps

ning was here.

the end.
6:45 PM

Thursday, April 5, 2007

Take it or leave it. im telling you i HAD ENOUGH! give me a break.

im about to have a break down. Everything is just killing me.

How i wish there was no tomorrow.
to put a stop to all this torturing.
its hard to stay strong.

School was quite dead today. we dint talk much or play much lately. we are not as high we used to be le. whats happening. and we were well-behaved today. i think.
Dance- SYF is coming! ahhh! and look at us. :( i dont think we can make it. we are gonna disappoint everyone for sure. wo men yao hui le dance club. :(
And.
lately everyone is in the moody moody mood. whats happening. sigh.
come on.
Cheer up everyone!
sunflower is here to brighten up your day. whee~ hahas.
im happy to see all my friends happy. :)
so be happy!
though we may see each other in school everyday. but we hardly talk. there's just no communication between us. may be its fated for everything to be like this. i shall just start learning to accept everything.
I MISS ICE-CREAM!!! :'(

the end.
10:53 PM

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Arguments. Quarrels.

Give me a break from everything.

its torturing me.

i tell myself to stay strong.

i doubt i can last.

im about to give up. and. raise the white flag.

i feel like crying.

lend me your shoulder.

would you?

It was a sleepy day today. our row was quite dead. we were like sleeping almost the whole day. i fell asleep while doing Chinese test. gave up. and went to sleep. i was very tired. after school. i had tuition. so. ning went with jia & joyce to get the bday present. Thank you! the problem is finally solved. whee~ and. NING AND JOYCE is very naughty. i know what your did hor. MUHAHAS. hahas. anyway. they went delifrance to eat without me. :( hahas.

Tuition was a killer used up all my brain juice. need to replenish afterwards. hahas. and im save ppl. im not dead yet. *rejoice. hahas. went home after tuition. i was lazy to walk back. so i took bus. and guess what. on my way back home. at my condo downstairs. i met my MONSTER!

CAT!!!
i was walking up the steps. the CAT started approaching me. i STONED for a while. and it went meow~ gosh. i was SO scare to move. i felt like i was stuck to the ground. cant move. having the how how face. no one was there to save me. my heart beat fast. hahas. but. HENG! an ahma came from behind.

ahma: ze me le. ni pa mao ah? bu yong pa de. (smiles)

me: gives the paiseh laughter.

Thank God and the ahma! She saved my day. hahas.

Thank you-ing session-
Thank you lailai, jasmine and angang for accompanying me today for lunch and to tuition. Thank you guys!! Love your. :)
The End!
Get well soon all those who are sick! :)
I MISS ICE-CREAM!!! :'(

the end.
9:57 PM

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Life is just so unpredictable.You never know whats gonna happen. Yesterday you maybe feeling your best. Yet today.You may wish for no tomorrow.I'll never know. May be i'll get bang by a car tomorrow while crossing the roads. who knows.so for now.i shall just cherish everyday of my life. =)

I was bullied by JASMINE today. she took my wallet like how many times. hmmm. *thinking. uncountable man! hahas. but. she took her revenge. cause i bullied her ytd. hahas. so now. fair fair. and. im still having cough. its is so irritating + torturing! and. Sorry 3-4! i know my coughing is noise pollution. sorry.

after school. i went shopping for birthday present with my dearest ning and jiajia at ms! and we met jasmine and ly who claim they were on a date. =.= hahas. we did had fun though we were quite dead at times. they were tired i guess. we dint managed to get everything we wanted. =( and. i hate shopping for guys present.its such a headache. hope we will be able to get the present on time. *hoping for a miracle. hmmm. nothing funny really happened today. and. im not looking forward for tomorrow. i got MATHS TUITION! man. i hate it.

and.

I miss ICE CREAM!!! ='(

today is a boring post. sorry people.

To all who are sick - Get Well Soon!!! =)

As requested by my dude. i m leaving para . =)

the end.
9:55 PM

Sunday, April 1, 2007

Its April fool's today! i got fooled by alot of ppl. did your? please dont tell me your are smart and dint get fooled. hahas. anyway. Wishing all a rib tickling April Fool's Day! though i know its quite late. i was supp to blog ytd. but i was too tired. last night was the same. the coughing and coughing just wouldnt stop. =( maybe i should not had ate the chocolate after all. hahas. and. those who are sick. Get Well Soon! =)

okay. ytd- we danced 2hrs non-stop! only had a mouth of water break. of cause. we werent that honest. we drank more then a mouth. hahas. it was tiring. due to the ex cost of the place. we could not afford to waste any minute. we were like stepping on THOUSAND DOLLAR ground. hahas. and. i was producing extra sound effect. i was dancing and coughing all the way. so was my laogong(joyce) we were coughing together. this is call fuqi bing. hahas. and. the costume SUCKS man. i could barely move big in that stupid thing. it feels like its gonna split open in no time. so bu an quan and uncomfortable.

besides. dancing and the scoldings we got. OF CAUSE there's fun. its a must to have fun! the ride there was all on posing and taking. :D we had fun doing all sorts poses. and. yeoyeo and i couldnt stop acting emo. ning was very high! she even taught us how to dance man. whee~ hahas. but. the ride back was quite dead. everyone was tired i guess. leaving me to ZI HIGH! hahas. but soon. gonggong & milo joined me. =) we had fun all the way back to school. and. it was home sweet home! Zzzz.

okay. guess some are waiting for me to blog about the other funny thing ning is saying about in her blog. here it goes...

We had dinner in the hawker before heading to NUS. yeoyeo wanted to help me get strepsils from NTUC. while the rest ate our dinner. so we can save time. i asked yeoyeo to get chocolate pocky too. so we could eat in the bus. But yeoyeo dint let me. =( she scolded me. we argued for a while. she surrenders and called ning.

yeoyeo: qianning tell her(me) no chocolate.(smth like that. cant rmb. id was ytd thing)

i turned and looked at ning. STONED for a while. sorry. slow reaction arhs. and. guess what! she was about to put the eggy chocolate milo bought into her mouth!!!! and i went eh eh! everyone started lauging! ning was not supp to eat too. cause she was having sore throat. i still rmbed at that time ning was having the stupid face on her. hahas. but. CUTE! her mouth was still open holding the chocolate in her hands. and looking at me with the oh-no face. hahas. if you can imagine it. it would be funny. =) the end!

tomorrow is back to school and there's dance. =( and I hope tomorrow would be a good day for you all! =D

the end.
6:55 PM