the pain hurts, till it numbs.
what a boring day today.
home-ed all day.
slept all day.
ate all day.
its back to school tomorrow.
and back with the books!!! :/
RAHHH.
lazy to read.
but the Os is next year.
maybe its time to get serious.
*thinking.lying to myself maybe dumb.
but i just cant accept the fact.
aint i good enough?
so, i had choose to lie to myself.
and i know this lying wouldnt last for long.
but, for now it will.
till its time, i guess.
still.
i prefer the lifts. (:tag replies!
sly-
yo yo!
whats up man.
hahas.
thank you. (:
i know what to do now.
your right.
i gotta wake myself up. (:
and.
you think twice before you decide alright.
come back to school! (:
the end.
9:03 PM
i choose to, lie to myself.
collection of results today.
mummy & daddy meets the teacher.
mr teo wasnt around.
so they spoke to cai cai instead.
went the earliest slot.
dint really got to see anyone.
home-ed.
the ride home was, HELL.
maths tuition later in the afternoon.
and rest of the day was home-ed.
boring day.
and.
boring post.
im feeling all green.
im feeling mad.
im feeling sad.
and.
i feel cheated.
im angry.
yet sadness conquers.
i'll just cry it all out.
im useless.
someone wake me up, please.tag replies!
Hello everyone. (:N1k3-
yeah.
hopefully.
really?!
you were doing duty that day?
but in my heart i went oh shit all the time. :/ants-
thank you for your comforting words and cheering. (:Raquel-
(:tania-
:D
i love tania.W_chuan-
i know.
but every mistake makes me lose hope.
still.
thank you. (:
the end.
9:29 PM
just when things doesnt seem to go the way i always wanted it to be.
i start to lose hope.
just when it comes back to haunt me.
i cry, hoping it goes away.
just when the people i love turn their backs on me.
i wish i was dead.
just when hope is given to me.
i lost it.
just when all that's happening starts to bring me down.
i hope to be saved.
emo has gotten into me again. :(
i was looking through all the photos.
thinking back.
i really miss those days.
although you may not be able to see this.
i know we are no longer as close as we used to be.
we dont share things like we used to anymore
laughs much as we used to.
we are just not like how we used to be.
we are maybe just friends now.
but your always im bestest friend. :)
and i really miss you my dear friend. :(
the used to be three crazy us.everything is changing.
for the better?
or for the worse?
tag replies!
N1K3-
?
why?
what happened?
sly-
hahas.
you think highly of me ah.
the end.
6:14 PM
i just wanna say how sorry i am, to you.
Im sorry for the way I feel, and always making you mad.
Im sorry for my actions, and always making you feel uneasy.
Im sorry for always being emo, neglecting you.
Im sorry for the way I wonder, and always questioning you why.
Im sorry for revealing my weaknesses, and all i do is cry.
Im sorry for the way I feel, and always thinking too far.
Im sorry for my selfish ways, and never think for you
Im sorry for always being the stubborn me, and not looking in your view.
Im sorry for my childishness, and not acting mature.
Im sorry i was the one always creating the problems.
and.
im sorry for everything, how i always treated you.
to you.
you may think i dont care for you.
or maybe never.
and your probably nothing to me.
but.
your wrong.
i do care, just that you dont see it or do you feel it.
in fact.
you hold an very important place in my heart.
cause.
Your the one i care for.
You are the one that makes me smile.
You are the one that makes me cry.
You are the one I wouldnt wanna lose for all time.
i just hope you understand.
what you say, really hurt me.
tag replies!
sorry for the late replies.
Nic-
oh my god.
really?!
you shld had gone up and make friends.
?
you serious?Jt-
ni hao. :DKengling-
:DD:D-
hello. :)eL-
EEEEEE LENGGGGG. :))
hahas.Jt, Kengling, eL-
okayyy.
all photos would be nightmare. :/
and i think worse.
i would have endless of slpless nights instead.
hahas.
kidding. :)ash-
okay. :)
the end.
10:01 PM
sunflower?
gone, no more the cheerful me.
Good Morning!
no school today.
and everyone is probably sleeping now. :/
what do you do when you cant get to sleep?
1. count sheep?
(thats too old fashion. you count dudes now. hahas.)
2. drink a cup of milk?
( does that actually works? )
3. watch movies till you doze off?
( it doesnt work for me. it gets me more agitated, upset or high instead. )
4. talk to someone till you fall asleep?
( bad. the person falls sleep even before you do. )
5. exercise till you feel all tired?
( i got high instead. )
all failed.
and here i am.
still awake. :(
looking like one of those infected monsters from resident evil. :/
what do your do when your cant get to sleep?
any tips?
maybe
its easy for you.
but not for me.
tag replies!
Hiro-
yeah. agree.
maybe they got interested in my life.
wanted to be part of it.
tania-
thank you niania! :)
im glad i still have you.
and.
i love you too.
*hugs(s)
anon-
thank you!
it made me smiled. :)
nic-
?
really.
i thought you were good in it.
huh, how come?
no plans for the holiday?
W_chuan-
thank you for your support! :)
sly-
its okay.
you take care yar.
hahas.
yeah.
you better be man.
the end.
6:14 AM
whats wrong with being emo?
its not a crime, isnt it?
im just being emo, not a freak.
so why do you have to call me a emo freak?
im telling you.
what's emo?
-a short form for emotional.
emo people.
-has a more emotional state of mind.
-are very sensitive.
what's a freak?
-someone very abnormal.
and i happened to fall in the category of emo, NOT freak.
being emo doesnt mean im abnormal alright.
you people just despise/dislike emos.
because, you view us as suicidal, cry babies, or just weak.
but, whats wrong with that?
not everybody are strong and has a strong mind.
not everyone faces every problem they come across bravely & strongly.
(maybe, you guys do. i dont know.)
we all face things differently.
and i happened
to be one of the weak one.
yes, i admit.
im weak, im a cry baby.
and im probably not as strong as your are.
this is me.
emo me.
but whats wrong for being me?
that you guys have to come and criticize me and my blog.
saying nasty things.
have i offended you guys?
why are your judging me
when your dont really know me for who i am?
we all live different lives.
and this is the way i live my.
you may despise me for how i live my life.
but im sorry.
this is just the way i live my.
and i dont see a need why i should change.
and i just hope all this spamming ends here.
i just wanna blog peacefully.
*PEACE.
thank you.
i used to thought i was always on my own.
but,
i realised there's actually a few out there who still cares for me
and i wanna say.
thank you to you guys.
i really appreciated you guys for actually speaking up for me.
without your help.
i'll be at a helpless state. :/
THANK YOU GUYS,
i think mango sucks. :)
me. :)
anon. :)
although i dont know you guys.
but you know what,
your help meant alot to me.
really, it does.
thanks. :)
THANK YOU BUDDY,
daniel
for your help and cheering(s). :)
smile smile smile.
stay happy! :D
THANK YOU FRIEND,
nic
sure put your knowledge of ss in good use huh.
hahas.
and guess your one of the few who thinks my blog rocks though.
and,
exams are finally over!
time to play!
enjoy yourself. :)
THANK YOU B-F,
yj.
yeah,
not only do i have to handle with life drama.
there's still blog drama.
=.=
too much dramas could kill me.
but i'll survive.
and
thanks for helping me.
bu kui shi wo de best-friend ah. :)
THANK YOU MY DEAREST QIN AI DE,
jiejie. :)
although your such an idiot.
you know what.
who cares!
i still,
LOVE YOU. :D
*multi hugs for you!
(sorry no kisses. :D hahas.)
last but not least.
THANK YOU SLY.
i dint forget you alright.
your crapping did made me laugh lots.
thanks for the comforting. :)
once again,
THANK YOU ALL. :)
enjoy your upcoming holidays!
and those whose Os are coming.
wishing you guys all the very best!
jiayou! :)
im off now, so long!
*phew.
my longest post ever man.
the end.
6:07 PM
the end.
10:16 PM
