blinded.

Friday, May 18, 2007

the feeling just comes and goes.
maybe its just not meant to be.

oral today
was kinda bad.

Chinese was first for the day.

i had to go first as mel was late. :/
i was not prepared.
dint have xin li zun bei yet.
i was SUPER nervous.
the reading of passage went okay.
though there were number of words i dint know how to read.
so, i anyhow hump tam.
then it was.
CONVERSATION.
i dint even understand the question.
and.
i straight away went HUH? *stoned.
but zhong laoshi was nice.
she knew i dint understand.

so she started explaining.

she went saying something like.
zhong laoshi : superstar?
ni zhi dao ma?
superstar.
campus superstar.
then i went.
me : orh, superstar! *stoned.
i dint really knew how to answer all the questions. :/

it was English.
Mrs Lian was my invigilator. :/

i was kinda nervous.
but not as chinese.
the reading of passage went well. (i guess)

picture!
B-A-D.
was the format changed?
we were being asked questions instead.
we dont just say what we want to say anymore.
she even asked questions like.
how do you think the baby is feeling in the picture?
man.
how would i know.
so i stoned really looong at the picture.
and.

Mrs Lian went.
yar, what do you think?
she was waiting for an answer.
so.
i just went.
lost?
(saying SHIT in my heart.)
i dint really know how to answer. :/
conversation was so-so.

okay.
that was all for my oral.
hoping for a pass.

Hope you guys oral went well! :)

Ning!
happy?!

im not that pianxin after all.
so dont be jealous.
hahas.
dont worry too much.
everything would go well. :)
I LOVE YOU~

there's something i wanna ask.
are dreams for real?
do they actually come true?
tell me they dont.
even if its to be a good one.
im scare.

whats happening?
things are getting weirder and weirder.
i woke up in tears for the very first time in all my sleeps i ever had.
i couldnt stop myself from crying.
i had a this dream.
it was SCARY.
SCARY.
i really mean it.
it wasnt sweet at all.
not even a bit.

what if it was to come true?
or maybe.
its already about to happen.
just that im not aware.
im really scare now.

all i ever wanted is to be friends.
was that too much to ask for?

the end.
10:35 PM