giving in, losing hope.

down with a temperature and having a bad sore throat.
but the weird thing is
the swelling is on one side of my throat only. :/
plus!
i can see my right-side under my cheek that area puff up.
hahas.
dint attend school today.
got to skip chinese test. :)
but the sad thing is i studied for it! :(
effort wasted.
but mean time i was happy.
caused, sly told me it was difficult.
*phew.

at least there's still a little laughter in my life now.
two stupid things happened today.
first thing.
i told my maid to boil barley for me.
for my throat.
she thought i was referring to Bali. =.=
she started telling me about her brother in Bali.
my sister and i couldnt stop laughing.
it was stupid.
second thing.
i was eating an sliced apple.
and i dont know why.
there was an broken piece of toothpick in it.
i was munching then.
i saw it in my apple.
the first reaction.
i though it was a worm.
i stoned.
started to panic.
and kept telling my sis there's a worm there's a worm!
after all the commotion.
we realised it was just a toothpick.
i felt so dumb.
hahas.

my day.

cheer up my dearest sis.
it isn't worth it.
what for torture yourself.
right?

day by day, we drift.
till the day we say good-bye.

the end.
10:17 PM

nothing.
there's nothing i want now.

i choose to run then to face it.

time passed so slowww in school today. :/
how i wished it had end quick.
exams are coming.
and, im not prepared!
shit.
im starting to feel really nervous and stress now.
plus there's lots of test up this week! :(
*whines.
chinese tomorrow.
off to study.
tata~

and.
YJ!
your NOT my buddy cause of your money okay.
(your also not rich, hahas. kidding.) :)
just stop saying that.

the distance is breaking my heart.
tearing me apart.

the end.
9:42 PM

Monday, September 17, 2007

to laugh or to cry?
dilemma.

i fear for what has yet to come.

just two more weeks till EOYs.
two weeks may sound long.
but its short.
time to mug mug mug.
school is forever boring.
nothing interesting or amusing happened today.
its a b-o-r-i-n-g post today. :/
mug hard everyone! :)

It's my insecurity.
It's not you it's me.
im sorry.

i fear home.
i wanna runaway.
far far away. :"(

the end.
9:50 PM

Sunday, September 16, 2007

why?
i really wanted it.
and your taking it away from me now.

nothing feels better then to be dead.

blame who.
myself.
i asked for it.
but how was i to know.
i never knew this was coming.
im sorry.
though i know its to late to say now.
but what else can i say or do.
you cant even see this.
can you?

still.
im not letting go.

would you let me cry on you for the very last time?

the end.
9:41 PM

Friday, September 14, 2007

it hurts,
to want everything and nothing at the same time.

so near yet so far.

a week gone by just like that.
fast.
and the weekends are here.
mug mug mug.
is all i have installed for the weekends.
b-o-r-i-n-g. :/
my life is like an empty shell now.
no you. :(
all the best to all who're mugging hard now. :)

im just a passer-by.

the end.
9:42 PM

Thursday, September 13, 2007

True?
its deceiving.

the pain gets deeper.

its the last day of dance today, till EOY is over.
talking of EOY.
its coming!
and its time to flip those books. :/
mugging days are here.
horror~

i understand.
i can never give what they gave and give.

lonely, is now part on my life.
shutting all doors.

the end.
9:24 PM

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

too bad? too good?
unknown.

it hurts more then you think.

today was...
okay.
school the same.
starting feel a lil pressure though.
EOY is coming!
and that means.
this year is gonna end pretty soon.
fast.
this year just passes so quickly.
that it felt like its been 2 separate yrs.
the first half of the year and the other half.

will be performing for the P6s tomorrow. :/
my cousin would be there!
but i dont really feel like performing.
no mood.
imagine you gotta smile your heart out.
deep down inside you feel like crying.
it sucks.
i'll probably slip or fall tomorrow.
*crossing fingers.
the floor sure is slippery.
Hope we'll do well.
and do dance club proud tomorrow.
with only the 9 of us.
if only everyone could perform.
that would be great.
I miss those days. :(

tomorrow will be a better day, i believe.

i wont fight.
i wont beg.
i wont hold on.
i wont cry.
i wont do anything.
i'll just accept it.

the end.
10:06 PM