i tried, but you just destroyed all my hope.

another day home-ed.
kept telling myself to pick up the book and flip it.
but, i couldnt.
my head hurts.
my heart aches.
i feel empty.
i dont feel like doing anything.
i just feel like crying.
but there's no one i can turn to.
i miss ning.
things are not the same.
and it never will be again.

your claim your are being caring.
what is caring.
caging me.
watching me.
forcing me.
your never understand how it feels.
your only knew how to say.
but not feel it!

it hurts.
its painful.
i wish you were here.
yet i wish you werent.

the end.
8:41 PM